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Arrived in Alaska!!

May 31, 2010 - 3 comments

I arrived in Alaska on Thursday evening after two very long flights and horrible plane dinners.... lol... Having a ball so far, Have done a good few things. Went to see the glacier in Portage which was pretty amazing but cold .. went to Balloga (sp) point and got some really great photos..... yesterday we played frisby golf which was really new to me and we had a blast!!!! Then afterwards had a bon fire and got ate alive my mosquitos.... Which was not fun ha.
Was real jet lagged for the first few days but am coming around now.. I really love it here so far and will keep ye all updated...  America is great, love the accent and it seems like they love the Irish which is pretty great!!!!

Im so worried, need someone to take me seriously!

Mar 18, 2010 - 8 comments

Im very worried right now. I injured my leg last saturday playing a Gaelic football match.  I went to casualty (emergency room) that day and after a few hours of waiting was told it was a sprained knee, they gave me crutches and told me to keep my weight off it for 2 days and then start using it. So the pain got increasingly worse over the past few days. I mean this is pain I have never experienced before in my life!! So today I decided to go to my GP and ask his opinion as I thought a sprain would never feel this sore.

He said no it wasn't a sprain but that I had tore my hamstring muscle and to keep off it and start physio. So I got an appointment for physio for this evening.. Went to the session and he told me it wasn't a torn hamstring but I had damaged my MCL (medial collateral ligament) and had cartilage damage! Hmm, ok 3 different diagnosis in 5 days...They never gave me an MRI scan, this is just from moving my leg and my description of the pain!

So now I am so so worried! I have my flights to Alaska booked for the 27th of May. What if this is more serious than they say?? It has happened to a friend and he said he needed surgery but it took 3 weeks to figure this out for him, in which time he did more damage cause of all the treatment. I am so afraid this will need surgery and by the time the damn doctors figure it out it will be closer to Alaska and i will have to miss it!! It has actuallu upset me cause I am so looking forward to going away this summer!!!

I dont know wat to do, no-one is listening to me!!! How the he// do I get this point out there, how do I get them to take me seriously??? All I want is an MRI scan to make things clearer!!!

Sorry for the long post but Im a lil upset and VERY worried!!!

We all fall down!

Mar 04, 2010 - 0 comments

This song has such meaning to me, I just love listening to it. It makes me see that you can't go through life without being knocked flat on your backside every now and then.. But you gotta get up and go... and keep on going, no matter what!!


She says, you know the monkey bar rules
As she kisses away his playground bruise
You don't have to skip a bar each time
To make it to the other side
She picked him up from out of the sand
Then tied the shoelace that read, Superman

We all fall down
It's the gettin' back up that really counts
We live and we learn
To help someone up when it's their turn
In life there's only one guarantee
Your feet won't always be on the ground
‘Cause we all fall down

She says I know what you're goin' through
As she talks to the door of her daughter's room
Your heart feels like it's broken in two
But, baby, I'm here for you
The door opened and she stepped inside
She put her arms around her and said, it's ok to cry

We all fall down
It's the gettin' back up that really counts
We live and we learn
To help someone up when it's their turn
In life there's only one guarantee
Your feet won't always be on the ground
‘Cause we all fall down

He's forty-five and his job is gone
Cleans out his desk and he heads on home
Sees his kids out playin' in the yard
It's been a while since he's been hit so hard
He's as scared as a man can be
He tells his wife and she says, honey, look at me

We all fall down
It's the gettin' back up that really counts
We live and we learn
To help someone up when it's their turn
In life there's only one guarantee
Your feet won't always be on the ground
‘Cause we all fall down

We all fall down
But you got to get back up

Diamond Rio!

A year and a half later!

Feb 26, 2010 - 8 comments

Im so excited about the summer I have ahead of me The plan is!! I am leaving for Alaska on the 27th of may. Will be in Alaska for the whole summer doing something I love!!! I will be working with a programme called HOPE, I will be working with childern with disabilities, doing camps, fun activities and maybe a bit of home help to... I can not wait to get over there! i will be making most of my free time, sight seeing, shopping and making new friends!! On the 18th of August i will be going to Chicago for the week! I am so excited about this as I have heard so many amazing stories about it!!

I just hope everything goes the way I need it too... I just pray that nothing goes wrong between here and then!

The past year and a half as been the worst of my entire life. How I survived it baffles me!! I am a bit concerned that my anxiety will start back when I get over there :-( and then cause I am worrying about that now, my anxiety is a lil elevated!! I still have a long way to go. Need to do major work on self confidence, self esteem and some other issues!! I just do not want to give up... Not just yet!

I have over come a lot the past year and unfortunately feel Iv have hit a brick wall! There are some things I dont know how to change, like how to bulid my self confidence?? thats a hard one to do! Im hoping Alaska will make me be a bit more independant, maybe I wont rely on friends and family as much!! Maybe then I can be my own person!
All I know is, life is a struggle, and feeling this bad about yourself is not healthy, so Im going to try and work on all this!!!

Just need inspiration!!!!