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Michael Jeckson- You are not alone!

Nov 22, 2009 - 0 comments

I love this song! Where ever you feel down listen to it cause then you'll realise your not alone!!!


You Are Not Alone"

Another day has gone
I'm still all alone
How could this be
You're not here with me
You never said goodbye
Someone tell me why
Did you have to go
And leave my world so cold

Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Something whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

But you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
But you are not alone

'Lone, 'lone
Why, 'lone

Just the other night
I thought I heard you cry
Asking me to come
And hold you in my arms
I can hear your prayers
Your burdens I will bear
But first I need your hand
Then forever can begin

Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Something whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
For you are not alone

Whisper three words and I'll come runnin'
And girl you know that I'll be there
I'll be there

You are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay
For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart

For you are not alone...


Feeling low these days!

Oct 04, 2009 - 0 comments

So I dont know what is going on in my head! Some days im great and other days I just want to curl in a ball and die! Today I was low... Like in my head all the time, thinking about things that I really dont want to think about! Mainly my ex! I thought I was doing ok with out him but all the memories of us and the things we did that were fun keep popping into my head.. Like today i went to town to collect a chinese and walking into the place I got flashbacks cause thats the place we used go to! It up-set me cause hes doing all that with someone else now and it kills me!

When I go to sleep I dream about him, all the time.. I cant escape from this at all...Im so messed up that I dont know whats going on anymore! Im confused about everything in my life!

I really feel like cr*p.... I know people say time will help, and I know they mean well but its been 3 months now and I dont feel any better! This whole anxiety, sadness and emptiness has been going on for a year now.. I really cant cope with hating myself and wanting my whole life to change! I just want to be genuinely happy! I want to be able to wake in the morning and think " Im glad to be alive"...... But i dont!This all really $ucks... I hate my life and dont think it will get any better!

Two weeks, England and 200 pina coladas lol!

Aug 31, 2009 - 4 comments

This is what I want some times... Two pina coladas!!!! Or vodkas . . . .

Two Pina Coladas - Garth brooks

I was feelin the blues
I was watching the news
When this fella came on the tv

He said Im tellin you
That science has proven
That heartaches are healed by the sea

That got me goin
Without even knowin
I packed right up and drove down

Now Im on a roll
And I swear to my soul
Tonight Im gonna paint this town

So bring me two pina coladas
One for each hand
Lets set sail with captin morgan
And never leave dry land

Troubles I forgot em
I buried em in the sand
So bring me two pina coladas
She said good-bye to her good timin man

Oh now Ive gotta say
That the wind and the waves
And the moon winkin down at me

Eases my mind
By leavin behind
The heartaches that love often brings

Now Ive got a smile
That goes on for miles
With no inclination to roam

Ive gotta say
That I think Ive gotta stay
cause this is feelin more and more like home

So bring me two pina coladas
One for each hand
Lets set sail with captin morgan
And never leave dry land

Troubles I forgot em
I buried em in the sand
So bring me two pina coladas
She said good-bye to her good timin man

What a surprise, another bad day!

Aug 27, 2009 - 4 comments

Having yet another bad day today! Wish I new how to control my mind and just stop it from thinking!  Everything seems so hard to deal with. It could be the smallist problem and I wouldn't have the brain power to solve it!

Between my thyroid, family and anxiety problems I think my chances of getting better are slim to none! Im supposed to be a happy out going 22 year old with a future that looks promising! All my friends dont have a care in the world and here I am with a million!

I have a thyroid issue that doesn't want to get better, anxiety that is a killer and so mush stress from every angle of my life that I dont have a hope in he!! of getting better! I just wish I was young again, when I didn't have to carry the burden of responsibility, when I used go to bed and sleep like a baby, and when I use never have to worry about "adult" things! This isn't how life is supposed to be, we're not meant to be miserable. are we?