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Michael Jackson was a ledgend!

Jul 12, 2009 - 1 comments

This is an amazing song, MJ was a ledgend!

Man In The Mirror"

I'm Gonna Make A Change,
For Once In My Life
It's Gonna Feel Real Good,
Gonna Make A Difference
Gonna Make It Right . . .

As I, Turn Up The Collar On My
Favourite Winter Coat
This Wind Is Blowin' My Mind
I See The Kids In The Street,
With Not Enough To Eat
Who Am I, To Be Blind?
Pretending Not To See
Their Needs
A Summer's Disregard,
A Broken Bottle Top
And A One Man's Soul
They Follow Each Other On
The Wind Ya' Know
'Cause They Got Nowhere
To Go
That's Why I Want You To
Know

I'm Starting With The Man In
The Mirror
I'm Asking Him To Change
His Ways
And No Message Could Have
Been Any Clearer
If You Wanna Make The World
A Better Place
(If You Wanna Make The
World A Better Place)
Take A Look At Yourself, And
Then Make A Change
(Take A Look At Yourself, And
Then Make A Change)
(Na Na Na, Na Na Na, Na Na,
Na Nah)

I've Been A Victim Of A Selfish
Kind Of Love
It's Time That I Realize
That There Are Some With No
Home, Not A Nickel To Loan
Could It Be Really Me,
Pretending That They're Not
Alone?

A Willow Deeply Scarred,
Somebody's Broken Heart
And A Washed-Out Dream
(Washed-Out Dream)
They Follow The Pattern Of
The Wind, Ya' See
Cause They Got No Place
To Be
That's Why I'm Starting With
Me
(Starting With Me!)

I'm Starting With The Man In
The Mirror
(Ooh!)
I'm Asking Him To Change
His Ways
(Ooh!)
And No Message Could Have
Been Any Clearer
If You Wanna Make The World
A Better Place
(If You Wanna Make The
World A Better Place)
Take A Look At Yourself And
Then Make A Change
(Take A Look At Yourself And
Then Make A Change)

I'm Starting With The Man In
The Mirror
(Ooh!)
I'm Asking Him To Change His
Ways
(Change His Ways-Ooh!)
And No Message Could've
Been Any Clearer
If You Wanna Make The World
A Better Place
(If You Wanna Make The
World A Better Place)
Take A Look At Yourself And
Then Make That . . .
(Take A Look At Yourself And
Then Make That . . .)
Change!

I'm Starting With The Man In
The Mirror,
(Man In The Mirror-Oh
Yeah!)
I'm Asking Him To Change
His Ways
(Better Change!)
No Message Could Have
Been Any Clearer
(If You Wanna Make The
World A Better Place)
(Take A Look At Yourself And
Then Make The Change)
(You Gotta Get It Right, While
You Got The Time)
('Cause When You Close Your
Heart)
You Can't Close Your . . .Your
Mind!
(Then You Close Your . . .
Mind!)
That Man, That Man, That
Man, That Man
With That Man In The Mirror
(Man In The Mirror, Oh Yeah!)
That Man, That Man, That Man
I'm Asking Him To Change
His Ways
(Better Change!)
You Know . . .That Man
No Message Could Have
Been Any Clearer
If You Wanna Make The World
A Better Place
(If You Wanna Make The
World A Better Place)
Take A Look At Yourself And
Then Make A Change
(Take A Look At Yourself And
Then Make A Change)
Hoo! Hoo! Hoo! Hoo! Hoo!
Na Na Na, Na Na Na, Na Na,
Na Nah
(Oh Yeah!)
Gonna Feel Real Good Now!
Yeah Yeah! Yeah Yeah!
Yeah Yeah!
Na Na Na, Na Na Na, Na Na,
Na Nah
(Ooooh . . .)
Oh No, No No . . .
I'm Gonna Make A Change
It's Gonna Feel Real Good!
Come On!
(Change . . .)
Just Lift Yourself
You Know
You've Got To Stop It.
Yourself!
(Yeah!-Make That Change!)
I've Got To Make That Change,
Today!
Hoo!
(Man In The Mirror)
You Got To
You Got To Not Let Yourself . . .
Brother . . .
Hoo!
(Yeah!-Make That Change!)
You Know-I've Got To Get
That Man, That Man . . .
(Man In The Mirror)
You've Got To
You've Got To Move! Come
On! Come On!
You Got To . . .
Stand Up! Stand Up!
Stand Up!
(Yeah-Make That Change)
Stand Up And Lift
Yourself, Now!
(Man In The Mirror)
Hoo! Hoo! Hoo!
Aaow!
(Yeah-Make That Change)
Gonna Make That Change . . .
Come On!
(Man In The Mirror)
You Know It!
You Know It!
You Know It!
You Know . . .
(Change . . .)
Make That Change.


Things just keep getting worse!

Jul 06, 2009 - 4 comments

Things are just getting so much worse for me. I truely feel Il never get better! In the past few weeks things have gone from bad to worse. My boyfriend finally gave up, so hes now my ex, still no endo app, Im turning 22 n a week and feel like Im 100! I just think I should lie down and die! Nothing is looking bright any more!

I don't enjoy life as it is and its only going to get worse!

I don't care anymore!

Hashimoto's is a killer!

Jun 24, 2009 - 2 comments

I was feeling really sorry for myself today! Depressed to say the least!

Like its just constant thinking about thyroid, anxiety and how $hitty my life has become.

Im heading out the weeked and when Im drunk is the only time I feel normal. Able to have the laugh and enjoy my friends company! The drink gives me energy LOL! Pity I can't be on it all the time, glad I know when to stop and when enough is enough! Just can't wait.. A few shots to clam the nerves! I know it will probably interfere with my anxiety and stuff but I think I really need a night out with my friends!

I am planning on making an app. with endo tomorrow and seeing if I can get in early! I need to see some hope! I want to be clear that i want my TSH down to 1ish and if they wont do that then its bye bye! Hahsimoto's is a pain in the butt... I need relief from my symptoms! I need a bit of calm time and a bit of sanity back!

I love writing my thoughts down, gets them out there. Therapy is helping to I think! I prob have issues that needed attention! Thyroid just brought it all out!

Pains are a pain in my butt lol!

Jun 20, 2009 - 0 comments

Today is one of thoes fat days... You know thoes days where you jusy feel FAT??? At the mo Im feeling sluggish, fat and just soooooooo TIRED!

Now the last time I was at the docs he weighed me and I was 66kg..... I wonder now what Id be!lol

Anywho, Im going to vent about feeling so crappy! The pains I have 2day are unreal! Like Iv ran a marathon! Its so painful... Im so tired too, but thats nothing new!

Sometimes I feel like running into a wall head first to see will it help! Might distract the pain from my legs for a while lol..  CRAZYNESS!

Anxiety there but thats nothing new..

I went to visit my nan and grandads grave 2day, it was so peaceful. I liked it cause I felt close to them! Made me forget about my problems for a while. The place was so quite and peaceeful, and made me feel so much better!

But, now back to reality!!!!

Anyone just want to lie down and die??? thats me at this moment. If I died Id be at peace. . . . . . like my nan  and grandad!