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baby name vent

Jul 16, 2009 - 0 comments

So DH and I have had baby names picked for several years now.  He chose the boy names and I have NO say in those. I've never had a problem with that until now.  I know it's stupid but I just want to vent a little.  The two names he picked for boys are:

Richard Allan III and Carl Lex.

Richard Allan is obviously after him and his dad.  Family name.  I get that.  Carl Lex is after his best friend who was KIA with him in Iraq during his last deployment.  So I get that too.  But there is a part of me that wants to name our son.  You know?  

Now let me say that I will NOT fight him on this.  That's why I'm venting here.  The names are very important and I get that and I'm happy about that.  But the selfish little baby in me wants to name our son myself lol.  

That and I fell in love with a new name.  Ha ha.  Don't you love it when you hear a name and it just clicks?  Well my new favorite boy name is Evan.  I don't know about a middle name yet.  But I'm just in love with that name so much.  It's crazy!  

Our girl names we kind of picked out together.  

The first girl will either be Kaedance Signe-Michele or Elizabeth Signe-Michele.  The double middle name is for our grandmothers.  Kady or Elly.  Our second little girl will be Kaylee Jean after my mom.    

I mean, it's kind of pointless to even talk about since we're not pregnant.  But we do talk about it since we're trying.  I was just thinking about it and wanted to get it off my chest.  

Are you kidding me?

Jul 08, 2009 - 6 comments

So I was basically told that I have pneumonia yesterday.  I have antibiotics, cough meds, etc.  I can't take the cough meds during the day if I'm at work because they knock me out.  

So I came in to work today because my boss said he needed me to.  So here I am.  I got all my work done super fast, thinking he would let me leave a little early.  He knows I'm sick.  Plus, I've been coughing like you wouldn't believe all day!  I have no voice left at all.  

So I asked him around 4, if I could leave.  That's an hour early.  Or even if I could leave at 4:30.  My body hurts so bad from coughing so much and I just feel terrible.  

Nope.  He won't let me.  He won't even let me leave 10 minutes early.  Whatever.  It just makes me mad.

So here I am, it's 4:45, with nothing to do...waiting to go home.

It just frustrates me.  Whatever.  

On top of all that, I started getting lower back pain yesterday. Its kind of like O pain, but not exactly the same. I'm 6dpo, so who knows.  I'm super cranky and I just need to get over it.

I have a ton of housework to do tonight, so hopefully that'll take my mind off my bad mood.

Ovulation s u c k s

Jul 01, 2009 - 0 comments

So I'm sitting here at work cd20, minding my own business and holy cow the pain starts.  I've been having some O pain on my left side for the past few days, and that's normal. But now I'm having INTENSE pain on both side and it just hurts.  Much worse than the last time we were on clomid.  Holy cow it hurts.  I know that we have a chance of multiples because of how many cysts/follies we have.  But the doctor didn't seem concerned, so I'm not concerned.  This pain ***** though.  We didn't have my follies checked this month, but he said that with all the cysts and such, that we could ovulate more eggs at a time.  I just want the pain to go away.  Blah!  Hopefully all the BD'ing we've been doing will work!  I doubt it, though.  this is supposed to be our trial month before we up the meds.  But how awesome would be if it worked this month?

Twilight Soundtrack

May 13, 2009 - 0 comments

So as some of you know, my wonderful hubby bought me a new Ipod on Monday.  I used to have one but it was stolen about a year ago.  

So I downloaded 3 albums:  Twilight, Carrie Underwood's Carnival Ride, and Wicked (original cast).  

I already knew that I loved Carnival Ride and Wicked.  

But Twilight is fastly becoming one of my faves.  I love Claire De Lune by Debussy (duh), and Carter Burwell's Bella's Lullaby.  

I have now discovered a new song!
Flightless Bird, American Mouth by Iron & Wine.  

It's AWESOME!!!  I can picture this song during Edward and Bella's time in the meadow.  When they are just laying there.  I feel that it's Edward's perspective.  I see him looking at her and those feelings of love, requieted and eternal, washing over him.  Listen the song, and really think about the love Edward feels.  REALLY think about it.  Close your eyes. Picture it.  It's fantastic.  It has this great mix of joy, love, and passion without being melodramatic.

Just wanted to write out my feelings as I listen to this song here at work.