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Spoiled by my husband

May 12, 2009 - 4 comments

So last night my hubby totally spoiled me.  It turns out that my family kind of pitched a fit at his idea for mother's day.  He wanted to surprise me at my family gathering with tons of flowers, a necklace, chocolates, etc. They all kind of flipped because "technically we are not parents".  

I know that we haven't had a successful pregnancy but sometimes I still feel like celebrating.  But oh well, I buried those feelings and went about the day, spoiling my mother with a gift card for a shopping spree, a necklace, dinner, and a card.  

Well I got off work last night at 5pm.  I got home, and as soon as I walked in the door, dh pushed me right back out the door.  I asked him what the deal was. He picked me up and carried me to the car, set me in and told me not to ask questions.  I was so confused.  I noticed about 15 minutes later that we were headed to my home town.  We live in po-dunk Iowa with NOTHING to do.  So we headed south to my home town that has more things to do.  He took me to JC Penny's and bought me two dresses.  That's all I could find that looked nice on me, in my opinion.  Then he took me to Maurices, where I bought 2 dressy tops.   Then I took HIM next door to the sports store and bought him 3 pairs of athletic shorts (for being so nice).  Then we went to walmart and he bought me (kid you not) an Ipod and a movie.  I was in shock.  So while he was in the bathroom, I bought him a video game that he's been wanting.  Then he took me to supper and got me dessert.  It was awesome!!!  He said that I deserved it for being such an amazing wife AND mother.  Even though we don't have children of our own yet, every child we've lost matters.  And so I SHOULD get to celebrate mother's day.  He was so flippin' sweet.  

I just wanted to share that.

Twilight, take 2

May 07, 2009 - 12 comments

So I just finished reading Stephanie Meyer's Twilight, for the second time.  It's so engraved into my brain, I thought I would write for a while.

There are a few things that I know now.  First of all, Stephanie Meyer needs to become a vampire so she can continue writing forever.  Her books enthrall me. I know that they are considered "young adult novels" or "teeny bopper books".  But I don't care.  I really enjoy her writing style.  It's an easy read but she just captivates me.

The next thing that I know is that I might actually be in love with a fictional vampire named Edward Cullen. Yes, I somewhat feel like a 12 year old girl, writing this.  Not a 22 year old, MARRIED, woman.  Oh well, I don't care.  And neither does my husband.  The connection between Edward and Bella leaves me absolutely speechless and breathless. It's a whirlwind romance and an eternal, ethereal love all at the same time.  It's incredible the way it winds up.   You know how in those quick, sultry love affairs, how it happens so fast, so sure?  Their story has that element. Now let's skip to another example.  Let's go to Jane Austen's Pride and Prejudice.  Elizabeth and Mr. Darcy's love builds slowly, simmering and long lasting.  Somehow Stephanie Meyer has combined the two into this amazing series and it just captivates me and holds me prisoner.

I think that a lot of women have that "dark side" to their physical wants.  A lot of women will admit to wanting to be wooed, courted, romanced, seduced.  But, I know for myself, sometimes there's another side to that.  That side where we want to be taken.  We want that man to be strong, take control.  Ha ha, I know that I'm probably sounding crazy right now, but who cares.  Is it masochistic of me to want Edward Cullen to bite me?  Hmm.... a thought to ponder.  The thought doesn't bother me one bit!  

I will be re-reading New Moon as soon as I can get ahold of it. I don't own the books yet, so I'm borrowing them from my sister in law.  I can't wait to contiue the series for a second time.

Now onto Mr. Robert Pattinson, the man who plays Edward Cullen in the movie.  He is not conventionally gorgeous, but I find him scintillating.  He pours himself into his characters and I really admire that about him.  He takes weeks off before shooting, to become one with his character. He confines himself in solitude and really just envelopes himself it in. I love that.  He's a musician on top of that.  I'm not a HUGE fan of his voice, but his talent with a piano or a guitar thrill me.  I don't know. Like I said, I sound like a 12 year old with her first big celebrity crush. I swear I'm having flashbacks of myself and Justin Timberlake when NSYNC first hit the scene.

Next point, the song on the soundtrack called Bella's Lullaby.  It's from the movie.  That song is incredible.  It reminds me of a cross between the perfect ode to unrequited love and the perfect serenade to eternal love.  Which fits the theme perfectly.  Three cheers to the composer.  The perfect connection between the songs dissonance and underlying harmonies.  How the song flutters and slips in and out of keys and chord progressions.  It's in Major then Minor, then... something out of this world. Like I said:  Ethereal.  It's perfection to me, at this moment.  I feel that way about a lot of compositions.  This one is thrilling to me in this moment.  I feel enraptured but it all.  

I need to get back into composing.  I miss it. Hm.... Maybe dh should buy me a piano.  I always used my mom's.  Now I don't live near her :(.    

Okay, that's enough for my ranting.  It wasn't really for anyone's benefit.  I just needed to write.  If that makes sense.

Are you kidding me?

May 04, 2009 - 0 comments

So I'm sitting here at work.  It's almost 3:30 and I'm about to pull my hair out.  I know FOR A FACT that I left a small pile of papers beside my computer when I left on Friday.  I didn't think anything of it this morning.  But this afternoon, when I got around to working on a few of those thing, THE PAPERS WERE MISSING!!!  The stack was still there but a few papers were gone.  One set imparticular.  I have NO IDEA where they could have gone through. I looked through my trash, fax machine, scanner, in progress files, everything.  They are no where to be found.  I haven't touched them. I know that for a fact.  

On top of that, my boss is questioning me on several papers that he thought we received (I did too) but that are now missing.  I mean, most of them are no biggie.  We can resign them and send them in.  But that's not the point.  I have no idea what happened to all these papers. I know that they were here when I left Friday night.  This morning I didn't touch any of the piles.  I was working on some online projects.  Now.... *poof* they are all gone.  

So I'm just frustrated. I needed to vent. I'm going to keep looking for these missing papers.  Ugh!

Rolly is gone

May 01, 2009 - 9 comments

Rolly the Runt died this morning.  He was born without a tail and without an anus and couldn't expel waste.  We tried to save him (before knowing about his anus) but it didn't work.  He stopped breathing for over a minute last night, his little body all rigid.  But then he relaxed and started breathing again. We held him and loved on him as much as possible and he died early this morning.  I've never gone through something like that.  It's just sad.  The poor little guy.