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Chronic Pain

Jan 04, 2011 - 1 comments

Chronic Pain






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The chronic pain has been back for a while now. When I take medication and it actually works, I will be pain free for a few hours, but the pain always returns.

My lowest (non-medicated) pain level has been at about a 3/10.

My highest (non-medicated) pain level has been at about a 8/10.

My regular migraine headaches, prior to medication, are ranging between a 5/10 to a 7/10.

Taking acute migraine medication often only brings the acute migraine pain back down to a 3/10, but sometimes it will get rid of the pain completely for a few hours.

I'm also getting a negative scotoma (visual aura) almost daily. Paresthesias (pins and needles/numbness) isn't as common as the visual aura is, but it's still happening more often than normal for me. Nausea has been a big problem lately too.

I am starting to feel worn out and I know that the increased and near-constant pain is beginning to wear on me both physically and emotionally. I am much more irritable than normal and much less motivated. More and more I am feeling the need to shut down, that is, I feel like I need to pull away from social activities and avoid making any sort of commitments. I even feel like hope is a draining emotion at this point. I'm just tired, I think.

I am seeing my neurologist soon, so that is a good thing. He will change my preventative treatment plan to get this all under control.

But, until I see my neurologist, I mostly want to just rest and avoid activity. Even basic tasks are exacerbating the pain. Showering or bathing seems like a huge accomplishment most days. Getting dressed is a lot like willingly throwing weights on my shoulders and tying tight elastics around my body. Putting on make-up and doing my hair is exhausting. Most days, I'm lucky to get all this done before it gets dark.

I have a few social commitments that keep my spirits up, and that I really do look forward to all week. But, I have to take my entire acute pain medication regime in order to be present with my friends and even then, the aches and pains still nag at me. I am out entirely after a day when I've socialized. The days after socializing are recovery days, complete write-offs.

Normally, losing days like that, needing recovery days, wouldn't bother me much. But, next week I am going to attempt to go back to school part-time.

I haven't been able to work or go to school for over a year. I'm not really sure why I'm trying again. Well, I miss it. I miss my field, I miss having a passion. I miss school.

Still. Part of me knows that I actually just can't do this. It physically isn't possible. This is not defeatist talk, I really just don't have the pain-control or the energy to finish a part-time course. When I say that I know I can't do this, it would be like an average person saying "I know I couldn't finish 10 full-time courses if I tried to take them all at once." No one would accuse them of being a defeatist or try to convince them that they could.

I'm just hoping that whatever my neurologist switches me to works this time. Maybe, if it works, I might have a chance at getting through this term.

I'm not too depressed about it all though, I really just feel tired. If I make it through the first week of class, that will be a huge accomplishment and I won't feel bad about myself if I can't keep going after that. If I make it through the first month, then I'll actually be really proud of myself. If I make it to the midterm, I'll feel like a super hero. Making it to the end of the course, well... that would really just be a miracle, so I'd rather just focus on getting through each day and just be proud of myself for that.

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Thyroid Levels Down

Dec 03, 2009 - 0 comments

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Well, my Thyroid Levels are still in the acceptable range, so everything is fine. But, they are down from my last scan. Last time my TSH was at 2.3mU/L and this time it's at 1.6mU/L. *sigh* This drop could probably explain my fatigue recently. I need to be more careful about not forgetting to take my Thyroid medication... it's the one medication that I forget to take, or forget to take properly (I'll sometimes eat breakfast or take other medication as soon as 15 minutes after taking it because I'm in a rush). I'm going to really focus on taking my medication properly and get rescanned after X-Mas and see if it's gone up any, and hopefully my fatigue levels will be better too.

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Dec 02, 2009 - 0 comments

Got a prescription for Advair today. Diskus style. Dr said we'd stick with the diskus because that is what I'm used to using. Advair got me over the last chest cold that I couldn't kick in terms of the coughing / wheezing / breathing symptoms... so now I am hopeful that things might turn around in terms of this chest cold that has been ruining my life these days.

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B12 Shots

Dec 02, 2009 - 0 comments

Started B12 Shots today. I've always taken daily B12 sublingually... but the fatigue has just been so overwhelming lately due to this chest cold on top of everything that I knew I needed some extra help. I'm hopeful that the B12 shots will improve things. :) Probably going back next week to get next shot... going to try to go weekly I guess. Still going to take B12 sublingually on days I don't get the shots. Looking forward to feeling like a real human being again energy wise. :)

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