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Humidity warning / also, chest pain

Nov 05, 2009 - 2 comments

raining a lot and there has been a dramatic change in humidity

watch out for possible up coming migraine (let's hope not! but be prepared). could explain pins and needles in hands. could explain worsening chest pain later in evening. oh yeah... i've had TERRIBLE chest pain lately... mom thought it was a silent asthma thing, i went to the doctor, doctor said it could be chondritis, specifically costochondritis, (inflammation of cartilage of my ribs and sternum)... so, it would make sense to me that weather would make inflammation worse since weather triggers other sorts of inflammation pain.

i'm a bit worried that the chest pain might be something like pleurisy since the symptoms fit perfectly and although the symptoms are very similar to costochondritis, there are a few things that make this sound a lot more like pleurisy... but the doctor would have noticed right away it was pleurisy when she listened to my lungs so i guess i'm just being paranoid. i listened to my lungs too with my stethoscope and i didn't hear any sort of friction rub (a friction rub sort of sounds like a cat purring... or like your lungs rubbing on something when you breathe). so, yeah, i guess the doctor was probably right about the costochondritis... still, it feels like i'm having the worst asthma attacks and at least once a night it comes close to feeling like i'm having a heart attack the chest pain is so bad. i want this to go away NOW. ugh.

at least i haven't gotten any bad head aches since November started... let's hope this dramatic change in Humidity won't trigger any!!

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Oct 06, 2009 - 0 comments

Mom just woke me up and said she was taking me to the doctor because he is in this afternoon. So... guess I am going to the doctor today... which is better than staying home and missing school and not going to the doctor I guess.

I hate waiting at the doctor's office though. I'll bring homework... I have a terrible headache right now though... I wonder if I'll be able to read any of it. I'll try.

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Oct 04, 2009 - 0 comments

Ow!!! I am sooooo uncomfortable!! My neck still hurts so much... and my back hurts sooo much. Also, I feel like I have a UTI but I went to the doctor and he said I did not have a UTI or any infection at all according to the test so mom thinks that means maybe I might have kidney stones because of the topamax NOOOOO!!!!!!!! If I have kidney stones I am going to FREAK OUT.... I will feel like it's my fault for not drinking enough water. They better call me and tell me that they made a mistake and I have a UTI or a bladder infection or even a kidney infection... because, I can't have kidney stones I just can't... I watched two of my friends have kidney stones and it is too awful and I don't want that on top of everything else. They locked my friend in the "jail room" in the hospital because she was screaming so loud and called security on her and they were mean to her and it was awful and horrible and I don't want that... they've always been nice to me even when I am in the worst pain at the hospital, even if I am crying really loudly, and they've never accused me of being a drug seeker or anything... but they accused my friend of being a drug seeker when she had kidney stones because she yelled so loud and then they locked her in the jail room but I don't want to get locked in the jail room because I know I will scream so loud like my friend did if I get kidney stones too because I scream and cry when I'm in pain and all the hospitals here thinks everyone who screams and cries is a drug addict because my city has more drug addicts than people in the telephone book and then they call security at the hospital and lock you in the jail room!!! So if I do have kidney stones I won't go to the hospital I will just scream and cry at home... but, I know that I will probably go to the hospital anyway even though I say that now and then they will call security and be mean to me and lock me in the jail room for the first time ever because I scream too loudly. That is what I am afraid of if I have kidney stones. That is like the worst case scenario that I can think of being on topamax (other than losing my eyesight which isn't going to happen anymore because that only happens when you first take it and I've been taking it for a year now).... and maybe now it's going to come true.... I am scared!!! I don't want kidney stones. My other friend gets them all the time and he says they are horrible and they sound more horrible then my migraines they really do!! He gets migraines too and I think he says they are worse than his migraines!! I don't want them at all!!! I am really freaked out right now because I don't know what else it could be because the doctor said it wasn't an infection at all. Mom says we should go to the hospital right now and get an X-Ray but I just want to keep taking the pain killer and pretend that maybe I am imagining it all and that it will just go away. Ugggghhhh. I hope my neck stops hurting soon too... it's been almost two weeks now, basically since that cluster headache... too long, I can't really move very well, I don't like not feeling super mobile, like less mobile than normal. I want to be able to look down and stuff. This better sort itself out soon. I am going to my family doctor on Friday to get trigger point injections in my back and if I still have UTI-like pain + horrible lower back pain (which is sort of like UTI pain but more like kidney pain I guess) then I will ask for another test to see if I have an infection and an X-Ray too to rule out kidney stones. I actually really hope I have an infection because it is so much better than kidney stones.... and kidney stones are possible because of the topamax (and even more possible because I have a family tendency toward them, ugggh).

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serious intense non-migraine pain day

Oct 01, 2009 - 0 comments





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ow ow ow. i woke up this morning and i couldn't move my neck at all. i couldn't roll over or get up or do anything. i cried a little bit and decided to go back to sleep. i woke up a little bit later and the pain was just as bad. i very carefully rolled onto my side and sat up very awkwardly and got a muscle patch on my neck because i didn't know what else to do... then i went back to sleep. the phone ran a lot but i couldn't get up to answer it. i cried but every time i cried it hurt so much that i just had to stop crying. i tried to sleep but even when i was sleeping it hurt. i couldn't feel my left arm at all, it was completely numb. i'd somehow thrown my neck out in my sleep and it was BAD.

when my brother got home, he'd brought me food and it was already the afternoon and i hadn't taken any of my medication yet and i was starving. i rolled out of bed and cried a bit but had to stop crying because it hurt. i walked down stairs very carefully. i ate lunch but eating hurt, every single bite hurt.

then i lay down again on the couch in the living room and watched tv but laughing hurt and talking hurt and crying hurt so i tried to stay as still as possible. moving my arm hurt. my mom finally came home around 4pm and she was able to open my bottle of medication for muscle relaxers and she gave me one and we waited and i kept hurting and crying and then not crying because crying hurt. then she gave me another one half an hour later and.... well, i can sort of walk around but crying still hurts and i can't move my neck at all. and my left arm is still numb but i can type with it now... but it hurts a lot. i'm going to get off the computer, this is probably no good for me at all.

i know it's nothing serious because this happened to me a few days ago but on the other side... so, i know it's not like, serious or an infection or something i have to worry about. still, mom said if she gets home tonight and i'm still screaming or crying and then not even really able to finish screaming or crying because it hurts too much then she is taking me to the hospital. but, i feel like maybe 4% better since taking those pills and who knows by the time she gets home maybe i'll feel 12% better or something. ugh. i can't believe i missed school today. i was REALLY LOOKING FORWARD TO CLASS. WE WERE WATCHING A REALLY COOL MOVIE. NOW I AM GOING TO HAVE TO GO RENT THE MOVIE BY MYSELF AND WATCH IT BY MYSELF AND NOT GET TO TALK TO ANYONE ABOUT IT. that makes me angry and sad. uggh. oh no. getting upset there actually made me hurt a bit more. i have to relax. i am going to go upstairs and try to drink some water and rest some more. oh. i am also going to book some appointments for trigger point injections with my GP... they trigger migraine attacks... but... it's not worth this sort of pain to not get them done. because, if i don't get them done regularly... then this happens. ugh ugh ugh. i should have got them yesterday when i was at his office but i just didn't want to hurt or get a migraine... but, i got a migraine anyway and look at how much i hurt now. ugh. so not fair.


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