Apr 09, 2010
I prayed this morning and as my prayer was ending GP messaged me apologizing and explaining his absence. I forgave him. I went to work and was telling this girl about me going to the Peace Corps and she asked if GP was okay with this and I told her I didn't know. So she insisted on texting him. I told her she could text him from my phone since they don't know each other and I didn't want to give out his number. So instead she took down his number and called from her own phone.
I already have anxiety issues and not that comfortable dealing with things with GP because we are not really together I'm just crushing over him. But she asked him if we were together and told him that I didn't know our status, which I DID. we are NOT in a relationship, but I don't know what he wants because we haven't spoken. So she took an incch that I was giving her and turned it into a mile of nosey-ness. I verbally forgave her but I guess I haven't done so spiritually.
I'm upset that I trusted her and she took advantage of me. But I don't really mind her bringing up the issue that GP and I need to establish our own relationship status along with some boundaries.
I've texted GP about everything, but I haven't called him because after getting in from my run last night it was pretty late and I was sure he would be sleep. I'm terrified to talk to him now. But I don't think I will get over any of this until I do talk to him.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! I'm glad I start Therapy on monday. hopefully she can help me fix this mishap.