Having begun to eat again, I'm finding myself gaining a little bit of weight. I would expect to go up and down anyway, but now I'm expecting that semi-starving myself is going to be a bit of a setback and that my body is going to hoard calories, and rightly so, since I don't know how long I'll be eating regularly.
I'm so excited, though...I was able to only eat two pieces of Halloween candy and a cookie last night, and I didn't really even want those, past the first candy (it was a peanut butter cup, so it was pretty rich). I'm needing to find a balance between not eating and force-feeding myself when I really don't enjoy the food anymore. It's weird to have control like this again, though. I haven't felt this free since I stopped the Risperdal. It's nice to be able to resist food. It's mostly just hard to resist starving myself now.
I'm still wondering what to do about my digestive issues. It seems I'm doing better when I don't eat. Maybe it's the food-to-water ratio. I'm not good at drinking enough water. Perhaps I'm allergic to something. I should call the dr. and see if I should even go in to see her. Probably I should. I'll just ask if I get the courage today.
My iGoogle Weight Tracker