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Pain and my future

May 07, 2010 - 0 comments

Well I have been trying to get the pain tracker to work as it would be useful as my pain is all over the place. It doesn't seem to want to load properly, maybe I need to try a different browser. I seem to remember stopping using it before as it was so rubbish, maybe I'll set up a word document or something. I am feeling very down about everything at the moment particularly my future. I have no real skills or qualifications I can use anymore so have to try and retrain, I need to be fit enough first if that ever happens. Attempt one at retraining has been put on hold as I can no longer manage to do the degree program, I can't afford to hold my place anymore so I either have to go back this year or drop out. I don't want to go back and have to drop out because i can't pysichally cope, that would be a bit of a blow emtionally.

I have been out of work for over 3 years so going back into work will be tough. I am worried about how I am going to earn money and live. GGRRRGGGHHHHH!!!

There is no point getting too wound up, the more stressed I get the more pain I will be in and it's bad enough at the moment. Plus it's bad to get into negative thought cycles. I have too much time on my hands and am bored too. It's bad as I over think things and then get more upset and negative...