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Well I

Sep 08, 2010 - 0 comments
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boss

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Work

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school

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TIRED

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sleep

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nap

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tattle tales

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Guitar

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Orange Julious

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bank

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food



Didnt realize my bosses boss was at work and got yelled at. Tattle tale.

I also  went to school. And was ridiculously tired. Wrote and read and napped and got in more trouble and stuff. Goodnight.



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It's always too good to be true

Sep 07, 2010 - 0 comments
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lies

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Smiling

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good news

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writing

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culinary

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class

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independence

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irony

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confidence

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friends

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Yoshi

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ice cream

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nap

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psychology

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lunch

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hot weather

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steve

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bank

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Mall

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Harry Potter

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prisoner of azkaban

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park

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swings

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slideburn

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tomatoe

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Reflux

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nausea

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deseeded

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shei

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YouTube

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dirty hair



But I let it keep me smiling a day.

Let's see, I kept writing and worked diligentlyish and got bitched out in culinary because my class isn't independent enough and it's almost ironic, because I've been so excited to come back and show chef and cindy how independent I HAVE become, working in a kitchen over the summer and doing some general growing up. I also have a lot more self confidence than I did, walking into the dining room that first day of junior year. But it doesn't matter, I guess. Not when I'm lumped in with a hwole class. We all just fall back into order. I still wish I knew what I needed to do. What do I need to do to make the teachers in that class happy? I'm trying, honest. I am. I'm at wit's end.

Otherwise, yeah. I tried and failed at making friends. but everyone liked my Yoshi shirt, everywhere I went. So I spilt ice cream on it tonight. No, not on purpose. Well then... I slept through psych becasue I was just so tired from not getting lunch AGAIN, plus it was about 104 in that classroom. Sorry, teacher.

Steve drove us to his house, we were gonna go to the bank and mall. I started reading, he fell asleep. I tried to wake him, he told me to go awake. I put my shoes on, told him I was going to swing, and walked out the door. Read at the park instead. He came for me and we  went back home, he had dinner, I came home and made my own dinner, it had ONE SLICE of a tomatoe in it. I felt nauseas after. True, not obnoxiously nauseas, but nauseas. Like puking. It's stupid. so stupid. ONE SLICE, and that's BEFORE I deseeded it. **** man, not fair,.

Then we went to sheis and were watfching videos and got ice cream and came home. Tada.

I really need to wash my hair.

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She kissed me

Sep 06, 2010 - 0 comments
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kiss

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shei

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steve

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nick B

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white chocolate

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hello kitty lollipop

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shower

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sugar gliders

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cage

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Cleaning

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vacuum

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froot loops

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giddy

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emotion

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scatter brained

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park

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tatortot

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FERRET

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leash

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tire swing

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caelan

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Baby

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grampy

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family

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memere

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ice cream



And I thought she was only trying to break my heart. I'm so confused right now, I'm not sure how I feel. I wish I knew how she felt. I wish she knew what it was like to see her with him, and I wish I knew what she feels when she sees me with steve.

But she kissed me. So right now it doesn't matter, not at all. Because she kissed me.

I made white chocolate hello kitty lollis today. I put the gliders cage/ everything else in the shower and washed it all thoroughly. I vacuumed. I ate froot loops. I love froot loops. Who knew? I'm stumbling right now, I feel giddy. Sorry if I'm a little scatter brained. We all went to the park and tator ran till he WANTED to be in his carrier. Steve pushed me and shei on the tire swing till we were ready to puke. I had Caelan on my shoulders and she leaned back. I would NEVER let her fall. I grabbed her ankles and leaned forward. She's not fazed. Babies and me are trouble. Steve and I came home and ate dinner with my family plus memere and grampy. Then we were watching family guy and shei called and we went out to get ice cream. And steve finally met nick. And then she kissed me.

I have school tomarrow.

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I woke up dead

Sep 04, 2010 - 0 comments
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dead tired

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hunger pains

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dizzy

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Milk

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laundry

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french toast

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lunches

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Work

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snacking

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sleep

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meals

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school

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eating patterns

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nomming

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summer

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chore

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feeding myself

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toaster waffles

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alice

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nap

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TIME

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Harry Potter

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steve

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large breakfast

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stronger

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butter fingers

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clutz

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shei

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hunger

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long night

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bread pudding

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Lactaid pills

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horror stomach

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the Simpson's Movie



no, I'm kidding, but I was so exhaustedly tired I might as well have been. I pretty much fell out of bed and brushed my teeth with my eyes closed. I almost rolled down the stairs from the weight of my laundry basket (a towel and several pairs of undies), and had to pull up a chair while I made 10 pieces of french toast. The milk jug almost knocked me over. Why? Yesterday I had my waffle breakfast, and half a sandwich and half an apple for lunch...I wasn't in the mood for another sandwich later, I was tired. Instead I ate almost all of a box of instant pudding.  So then I went to work, and didn't even think to snack for some reason. I got home and I was so tired I was falling asleep sitting up at the keyboard. So I just climbed into bed. It dawned on me in the morning that it had been 16 hours since my last "meal" and I quickley ate most of a loaf of bread (two eggs, milk, and maple syrup).

School is just screwing with my eating patterns. I'm used to nomming all day during the summer, just to keep up with feeding myself. It's almost a chore. And since I didn't get lunch because I'm late to culinary the first three days, I wasn't eating much of anything after my morining toaster waffles until atleast after school. If that, becasue then I had work or fell asleep. Or went out or something. I don't wanna sit still anymore, but my body won't let me move. I wish I could just get some sleep.

So today, after I ate, I tried to watch my new Alice! I couldn't I thought I only just closed my eyes, till the clock jumped from 17 minutes in to 1 hour and 43 minutes. A nice nap, if you ask me. I read some HP at steves and went to work again. Now, I'm feeling so much stronger after my large breakfast, but not 100% I'm still moving in almost slow motion. I become a butter finger when my eating patterns are off. I forgot to tell you yesterday I dropped three salad bowls, 11 shrimp, several fish containers, tons of whipped cream, a pile of LBR's and almost everything else I came into contact with. Today wasn't so bad, I still dropped everything, but I managed to catch most of it. Oh, and also yesterday I went to sheis after work and was just lying on the couch. Steve yelled at me for being hungry. I wasn't sure when exactly I was supposed to have eaten.

What else? It felt like a real long night. I went to steves after and finally got to enjoy some bread pudding without the horror stomach after. I love those pills. I watched the simpsons movie and read some more HP. Then I came home. Now I want bed.

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