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another kind of day

Oct 06, 2019 - 0 comments

Been waiting for hours for somebody to answer my questions here, looks like nobody is interesting in helping me, is sad, because a little of love for others means a lot for the person who is suffering. Today I received it a visit from a pastor, was as I expected what he will tell me, that my house have a lot of problems and that is the reason my daughter and all my family had suffer A LOT all these years, he prayed for u and prayed over the house and is other stuff that I will need to do to try and help to make the situation inside here less dangerous and free my family as much as I can from the curse that was put here by the persons who owned the lands in the past  or constructed the house  , all these sound like the most stupid none sense but for those who believe in God and had seen the dark side they know that this is true and is a big battle that I have in front of my, another battle, help me God

another kind of day

Oct 06, 2019 - 0 comments

Been waiting for hours for somebody to answer my questions here, looks like nobody is interesting in helping me, is sad, because a little of love for others means a lot for the person who is suffering. Today I received it a visit from a pastor, was as I expected what he will tell me, that my house have a lot of problems and that is the reason my daughter and all my family had suffer A LOT all these years, he prayed for u and prayed over the house and is other stuff that I will need to do to try and help to make the situation inside here less dangerous and free my family as much as I can from the curse that was put here by the persons who owned the lands in the past  or constructed the house  , all these sound like the most stupid none sense but for those who believe in God and had seen the dark side they know that this is true and is a big battle that I have in front of my, another battle, help me God

another day of dificulties

Oct 06, 2019 - 0 comments

today my D woke me up to let me know she don't have more food stamps, also she cant work and her mental state is absurd, then my life goes in the same toilet mess that is everyday, i cant understand what is happening, thing goes from bad to worse everyday, nothing gets right and never good news, always a problem. If there was a God that really love us i will ask for prayers but for 12 tears more than 3000 people had pray for us and things goes worse, then I dont have support or help, even here the people don't answer my post even they can read that all that i put there is causing me severe stress, can humanity be more cruel and God less interested? i don't think so

day by day, nightmare that never ends

Oct 05, 2019 - 0 comments

Im feeling like finally I lost my mind, after 12 years of fighting to keep my D alive from bipolar disorder and anorexia nervosa i feel like i had accomplice nothing except the hate and disgust from all my family members, and also I had lost all my “friends”, I had never felt so destroy by life and defeated by problems that look like imposible mountains to climb . The more I know people the more deception I feel abut life and humanity, even my family has abandone me or ignore me because I had become the mental case they don't want to deal with, my husband hates me and on the best days that is only when he need sex is when he goes near me for no more than 30 minutes. I had been all my life a warrior, I had come from a very dysfunctional family with a drunk aggressive father and and passive aggressive mother that never want to leave that crazy life, I had fight for my mental health and the health of one of my daughters for 12 years, I had to tolerate a son in law that married my older D 10 years ago and that hates me and want at any cost to destroy my relationship with my daughter, my 16 years old son is emotionally sick and my middle daughter is in a permanent health crisis from the bipolar and the severe anorexia nervosa, I had seen people destroy her life and given by God the best - no the punishment they deserve- , God has abandone us and im supposed HE laughs at my suffering everyday while they give the rapist and drug dealers all the promises HE put in the bible. I cant find peace, I need to drug myself every night to be able to sleep and I have to fight everyday panic attacks, PTSD, anxiety disorders, severe OCD, exahustation  , fybrmialgia and a life that don't make sense anymore.