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My love died in my Dream

Aug 12, 2009 - 0 comments
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Okay the dream started out in my kitchen. I was on the computer with this girled called Anna(who's actually real and is in the same grade as me) who was sitting beside me. Well my parents started to insult her and my uncle came into the kitchen. He started talking about this event that I should go to. Without saying yes or no, I was transported to another scene.There was like ten other people talking outside with these Tiki like statues everywhere. My BFF(and love in my heart) DJ came up to me. Apparently in this scene there's this new virus going around and DJ was the first one to get it.Well he is now getting a vacine they hoped will stop the symptoms(one of them is blindness which will come up pretty quick in the dream). Well suddenely all I could see was white, and nothing else. Realizing this DJ offered to give me his vaccine. I declined saying he needed it more than me(keep in mind the vacine supply is low so, it would make more sense for him to keep taking his). The scene changed and we and two other people were outside this old abadoned horror hotel. Apparently the cure was inside. As we approached the side walk(the side walk is as talke as a counter in this dream) a car  started driving down it(it's intent was to run us over) DJ and Jonathan were able to get up and Erica was third to get up. I was able to get up thankfully but lost my show so now I was just in one shoe(but wearing socks) I took of the other shoe though for some reason. We headed towards the door(were still on the sidewalk) as we were walking we saw something at the end of the side walk. It was a really REALLY fat guy in a blue and white striped shirt. He started running towards us and everyone panicked. DJ and Jonathan ran inside, but Erica ran the opposite direction, where the parking lot is. I went on instinct and ran towards Erica. I could feel the guy running towards the two of us. We got to a point where the side walk ended and there was a road then some grass part. Erica jumped from the sidewalked and landed on the grass part. I jumped to and only made it two thirds of the way across the road. I hit the ground hard. (is it kind of funny that even in my dreams I'm unathletic XD ) I felt nothing but utter terror when I heard a car start up and drive towards me. I scrambled up and ran after Erica. We passed by this shop and saw a blond woman. I felt like I knew her but couldn't place who she was. That was where the dream ended. Ughhh....I hope I don't EVER have another dream where DJ is going to die T_T

Another Breakdown

Aug 12, 2009 - 0 comments
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never be happy



Around 5am I started to look on my life. And I broke down into tears about how no one cares, and how I'll probably off myself very soon. It was even worse because I know this will never get anybetter. I will never be loved, and will never be happy.

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Water Vs. Caffine

Aug 11, 2009 - 0 comments
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Well a the moment were REALLY REALLY thirsty, but noooo there jsut happens to be no pepsi in teh fecinity *Maiya: What about mountain dew* We would have to wait until late at night to have it *Artemis: Why don't you just partake in some water* Because water is one of the most tasteless fluids ever *Artemis: When was the last time you had water that wasn't combined with caffine* .....Uhhh....when was my last band day? *Artemis:.....Your going to kill us all with that bad health...* *gives shocked look* It's not my fault I can't handle water, besides if it has caffine in it I'm more likely to drink it and stay up late, causing me to get more work done *Artemis: Let's see...but what you said...your health is already compromised from your unhealthy eating habits and along with the bouts of insomnia....your going to die by the age of 30...* Right*rolls eyes*....I'm still not going to drink water...*Artemis: Don't we have any say in this?* Uhhh...*Maiya: I agree with Miranda! Water is awful, and should only be drinkable once mixed with caffine...preferably pepsi* Yup :) *Artemis: I'm surrounded by idiots...* *Maiya: Hey! tecnically I'm smarter than you. Miranda may not be as smart as you but....she at least knows how to communicate with people* *Artemis: Last time I checked she was anit-social and the only social interaction she gets with people are those friends of hers. The same friends who started a tractor on fire*...That was fun.....*Maiya: Yeah that was funny, so shut it Artemis* *Artemis: I can't shut it when Miranda is pretty much shortening her life span little by little, with dangerous recreational activites, an unhealthy diet, suicidal tendecies, and insomnia* ....I feel like I'm being judge here....*Maiya: Uhh...Artemis?...I have the exact same life style...did you forget that?* *Artemis: You two are hopeless* Are not! *Maiya: We are not! Were fun :D* Exactly.....*Artemis: Would you two like for me to remind you that 3:43 am counts as lat night. I do believe now that you could indulge your self on some caffine* *stares at Artemis with a shocked look* Your right! *runs upstairs to get pop* *Artemis: Simpleton *hissed under breath* * *Maiya: Hey! *hits Artemis* don't call her that. For the last time, do not beliddle people who are of small intelligence!* *Artemis: I'll try to keep that in mind the next time she does sometihng idiotic or imbecilic *grumbles* * *Maiya: You have problems.....* *Artemis: I do not! and for one look who's talking! *points accusing finger at Maiya* * *Maiya:.....just proves my point....* I'm back! :D *Maiya: Yay! Time for caffine!!! *realizes somethings* See Miranda. I told you that you would feel better after having some moutain dew* You were right of course *gives hug*I want to read a fanfic!!! *yells very loudly* *Maiya: Are you going to finish Home?* Ummmm....I think I will finish later today...I'm not in the mood for it at the moment...I want to read humor ^_^ *Maiya: Okay then I guess it's time to sign off for the meantime. Maiya Out *transports into Miranda's head* * *Artemis: I guess I should follow her leave too. Who knows what she'll do to your head alone *transports in head as well* * Sometimes I question my own sanity....but then I think...Pizza! Okay Bye *waves happily* I am very tired but still want to read sooo Bye :D Live Long and Prosper.

Sad T_T

Aug 11, 2009 - 0 comments
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I suddenly feel a sense of sadness wash over me. I don't know what's wrong, but I feel like sobbing. I should probably go to sleep and hope that the feeling doesn't folllow me later in the day, but...I know that it probably will If I do fall asleep. So I will stay awake until 4:30am at the max. But all I want to do is sleep, but I don't think I could take it if this feeling followed me into the day.

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