Jun 25, 2009
Dear Medhelp friends,
I am so thankful for your support and love during this tough time for us. I have a lot of support from my friends and family, but to see you all come around me and be here for me is incredible. Thank you.
Our little girl had to leave. Some of you know we were planning on adopting a seven year old girl and she had been in our home since Dec. 23. Poor thing was so troubled and we were so happy to have her in a stable environment where two parents loved her and cared for her needs. I'd like to think I was a good mom.
But she had so many traumatic issues and the more comfortable she became with us, the more freely she was able to act out on her true behaviors. Truth of the matter is, she is not able to survive in a typical home at this time. She is very sick and needs a lot of help. Her psychological needs far exceed a home setting and she was become too much for a family to handle. She needed to go to a facility where she can have other measures in place to protect herself and others around her from herself.
To see such a sweet, charming young girl go through this was incredibly painful. It also takes up a lot of energy and time. We don't have other kids, but we have each other and we were unable to continue care for her and sustain a healthy marriage relationship. So she had to go.
She left on Tuesday and is not coming back. She did not leave with tears or sadness, she left with anger and harsh violence. She is unattached. We are slowly trying to pick up the pieces and detach ourselves. It is so hard, but it is the right thing to do.
Please pray for us and we get through this next season. We are so sad and feel like failures. I feel guilty.
Please pray for Naudia as she is going to go through some intense treatment. She has been in foster care for about three years and cannot be adopted with these issues. At least now the state has awoken to the problems she is having and is going to try to do something about them. Pray that she will be healed and learn to love herself and others someday.
I will connect with many of you personally, I appreciate you waiting for me.