Jul 05, 2009
Wow what a fantastic day yesterday (sat 4th). Gorgeous weather. Was invited by my sis in laws friend to a barbecue out at her house in the countryside. Was a big get together as her bruv & his wife & kids are emigrating to New Zealand this comin thurs - so lotsa adults & kids. Felt a wee bit uncomfortable to start with as I dont know everyone that was ther and as usual I was the only single one (which does my head in sumtimes, like bein the spare part all the time!!) However once I relaxed a bit I really enjoyed myself. Nice to meet new people and this all helps me in my recovery as its puts me in situations that I didnt deal with in my using as I never went out very much unless it was to score!!!
wknds are my hardest so it was nice to have sumthin to do ystrdy. Its a gorgeous day again so Im away to take my book&MP3 down to the beach as its only 5mins from my flat and catch sum rays. Lotsa housework to do but it can wait, who wants to sit inside on a beautiful day like this.
Feelin bit more positive. Breaking ties wi my ex has been hard, but Im not in love and its not fair to string him along or on myself either. Ive moved on with my life and I noticed that he seems the same although he is clean, he still has a lot of the same attitudes as before, judgemental, looking down his nose at people, strong opinions etc etc. Whereas Im much more calm now & I stand up for myself a lot more which when we were togetha for all those years I never did much of at all.
Off out now or Ill miss the best o the day.