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So very sad...

Jul 05, 2009 - 0 comments
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suicide

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Depression

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Sad

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Bipolar



A journal entry I found from a darker place in my life...


Numb…my eyes are dead…peering into a world that is alive & beautiful, yet unattainable.
Fatigue…unable to focus…spinning, colorful, noisy thoughts…never leave my head…weeks with no sleep…going crazy…
I lay here in my own private hell…the nightgown from 4 nights ago…hair unbrushed…embarrassed…unable to change.
Wanting to close my eyes…to sleep, never to wake…hoping the silent pain will slowly diminish.
Where have I gone…who is this sad empty soul that occupies my body? Where is the joy? The laughter, the love? My eyes are so hollow now; emotion’s are numb and filled with the side effects of medication. Unhappy and caged is what I am…separate from the rest…mentally ill…a burden…

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