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Psychologist Appointment Update

May 10, 2014 - 1 comments








I had a Psychologist appointment this week. It's taking me a little time to come to terms with. I haven't really told her anything yet. How do I get better if I don't communicate? Then again, some things just can't be communicated. Can't be shared. I wouldn't know how to begin talking about my PTSD if I wanted to, and I'm pretty sure I don't want to. I just want to get better. Please help me!

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by Nighthawk61, May 12, 2014
I too have had reason to suffer from PTSD honey. And, it took me a long time to get before a therapist, and I did a lot of damage to myself, and my family,  using drugs and alcohol, back when I thought it was the only thing I could do to stop the visuals, and the barrage of thoughts. I never knew for the longest time that there was therapy for someone like me. Then, one day while I was in a treatment center I had the opportunity to be listened to by someone that I sensed I could trust, and I finally talked about my inner demons. It was hard to settle myself enough to get the words out , one after the other, it seemed like the seconds were hours when I first started to speak, but like a child learning to walk, i took one tentative step after the other, and my story was told. Afterward I felt better. My therapist had a few words of wisdom, but I think mainly my opening up made it possibly for me to do so more regularly after that initial meeting. Down the road, I went to a group called ACOA, or Adult Children of Alcoholics or Dysfunctional Families. There it was a group of folks that spoke in a circle format, and shared the worst things that had happened to them. All the things that had been so hard to think of let alone speak of, became less scary, and finding others that had been in some of the same circumstances, made true friendships possible.

We can't get better sweety, if we don't communicate. It is in the act of our communicating that we allow some of our burdens, to be shared, by the person opposite you. People, whether they are therapists, or not, are honored to help another share their burden. That's why so many who have experienced PTSD and anxiety have come forward on this forum, to give back. So, if you're anything like myself, you don't want to share your story, because it makes it more real for a time, but it only when it is real that this beast can be slay. You must take it out of hiding , and let the light shine upon it and kill the evil that lived with your suffering. I know it can be done, because that's what happened to me.

I believe that you want to get better, and I know Morgan needs you to, and it's obvious that you love that child with all of your heart. Take the first uncomfortable step and know that all those who have suffered by another's hand , in this life and beyond it are by your side praying for you, and hoping for you. You must talk about it to get better. There's no other way. and, so I hope that you will stay in touch through these journal pages. and are able to see your progress, as others. because your story is so important.

God bless you Peyton. I pray you take advantage of the psychologist there, so that you can rejoin your life back home. God speed.

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