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VENTING....A Sad SAHM...

May 14, 2008 - 2 comments

O.k let me breath.....I feel so ARGHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
First let me start by saying I am SO thankful of everything in my life! My kids,My dh.There healthy,happy,content!I am so lucky to be able to be a SAHM.And LOVE being here for EVERYTHING! Be there for every new thing.Especially Juliana.She just amazes me.How big she is now.How smart,active.And is learning something new everyday!And I am so lucky to be here when she does.

And I think even though I'm thankful,I feel as probably many SAHM's feel, I am being tooken for granted.I do my darnedest to have everything so perfect.Have every meal cooked,every bodys clothes washed.The house clean.I am just EXHAUSTED! I feel like a used dish rag! People just take,take ,take.Everyday the same,The same!

But do I get a thank you? Do I get a check? Do I even get a how was your day? The food was good? You look nice? O.k maybe my hair is a mess?Maybe I only slept 5 hrs? When was the last time I showered? I'm still there early in the morning to take kids to school.To make food.To care for baby!The only thank you I get is one little smile,The smile  my baby gives me when she sees me early in the morning.When I give her food.I can do no wrong.And that is the only thing making me not pull out my hair.And run down the street SCREAMING!I feel like I'm living the same day everyday.The same things always.And god forbid I get sick,or I want a day off,The house would fall apart! I wouldn't be a "GOOD" mom.I would not be doing MY "JOB"!

So why the reason for this vent? Why the sadness? Mothers day has come & gone.Mothers day should be every day! A mother NEVER stops.I know my mom never did.Or my g-mother or hers.I always wanted..as far back as I remember...playing with my dolls,dreaming of having a big family & being a mommy.But what my little brain didn't know is how sad it could be.How lonely.How much of your self gets lost.How much of your self you give.And yet never get anything in return.

I got nothing for mothers day.Not a card.Not a gift.Not a day,not even a hug! I don't expect much.But  WTH?NOTHING?Not my kids,not from there school (they were testing all wk).Not from my dh.That day has came & gone.I should have expected it,I guess.I should be used to it.But just like that little girl playing with her dolls I accept it.I don't like it.But I guess my present is seeing my kids grow up healthy,strong,responsible.Because I raised them.And maybe they're to young to acknowledge or even understand it now?But just like I did.Will be thankful,grateful?One day.......maybe one day?

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by becca_3456, May 14, 2008
I am a SAHM and I totally relate. Sometimes I wish some one would cook for me and wash my clothes and make sure I did not have to do house work when I was home. That would be wonderful!!!!! I am thankful also for being able to watch my little girl grow up she is awesome!!!! She makes every meal I cook and every piece of clothes I wash worth it:) I feel under appreciated too sometimes. This was my first Mothers day and I got a home made card from DH and some flowers that he pick from our yard and I was kinda pi$$ed at first. Then I realized that they came from his heart instead of from the store. I wish that he would tell me more often that I am doing a good job raising our daughter and taking care of the house and him but I guess that most men are not good at telling people how they feel. I just wanted to let you know that you are not alone and even though you feel unappreciated you are the foundation that your family is built on and without you and your hard work your family would crumble:)

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by jdesouza, May 14, 2008
Hi,
My wife is a SAHM and what you wrote was very illuminating.  I must say I am guilty of not giving her as much acknowledgement, appreciation or gratitude as she deserves. I feel as if my work is very hard but I tend to forget that her job is 24x7. I feel as if I have to worry about our finances but she has to worry about our family. I feel as if anytime she asks me to do seomthing she is overburdening me but without asking her for anything else I have already overburdened her.

I think your dh should have done more. We should do something more often but at the least on that one special day we need to do something. I'm sorry that he didn't.
Happy Mothers' Day and believe me your efforts will be paid back in spades as your children grow up to be wonderful people as a direct result of your hard work.



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