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The panic is back in a major way

May 15, 2008 - 24 comments

My wonderful panic attacks are back with a fury. Now they are hitting me at night. The feeling of complete, impending doom. The fear that I will die during the night.  It's absolutely horrible.

The other night. I leaped out bed screaming. My heart was racing. I felt as if my essence was leaving my body and I was in a state of complete terror.

It's just plain nuts. Or maybe I am :(



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by Sally44, May 15, 2008
Can you think of anything that has triggered them.  Are you going through a stressful period?
I don't have anxiety, I have Fibromyalgia that can also mess with your ability to sleep.  And if you don't get a good nights sleep you just feel worse the next day.  I take something called Amitriptylene in small doses.  This is originally for depression, but when taken in small quantities it helps get me to sleep and stay asleep, instead of waking up 2-3 times a night.  I think if I didn't take it my body clock would slowly turn me into a nocturnal animal and I would sleep until late in the morning.
Although I don't have depression I would have 'dark moods'.  More a feeling of doom and things going badly.  I used to cope with that by simply recognising that it was a pattern I went through.  There wasn't necessarily any reason for it.  It came and it went of its own accord.  So I just sort of had to ride it out.  When I accepted that I felt better about it.  But I wasn't much fun to be around on those days!  The Amitriptylene has levelled out the moods as well.  I also used to get very irritable and blow up at the smallest thing.  I have found that making sure I eat something every two hours this has removed the irritability.
Don't know if any of that helps??  But apart from the doctor it was a nutricianist who gave me the best advice.  Are you filling up too much on stimulants such as caffine/alcohol/sugar?

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by Sally44, May 15, 2008
Or maybe you are nuts!!! - not really

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by Robert29, May 15, 2008
I also get feelings of horrifying panic...hallucinations and all kinds of the bizzare that goes along with panic!  sALLY is right about the diet issue...i have found that eating a good balanced diet and eliminating refinded sugars and the caffeine can benifit you tremendously.  

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by itsallwaves, May 15, 2008
You are both right. I'm struggling to reduce al of the bad stuff. I limit my caffeine to a couple of cups in the morning and generally don't eat things with sugar (other than natural things, such as an apple).  I did notice that wine affects me, so I don't typically have alcohol (except perhaps a glass or two on the weekends and even that is going down).



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by orleans, May 15, 2008
Are you treating currently? What is your interest in migraines? jerry

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by itsallwaves, May 16, 2008
Not treating the panic attacks through any pharmaceuticals. My interest in migraines is that I get them, with major visual auras.

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by DBG14, May 18, 2008
I had the same thing about 3 years ago. It lasted 3 days. I could not close my eyes to sleep because i thought my heart would stop. OMG it was the worest 72 hours of my life.

I went the doctor and did all of the test. He gave me something to put me to sleep at night. That worked but I stayed on that for almost 2 months. It was a little white strong sleeping pill.

I can go on and on and on....about it. I still have the feeling I will die just driving to work or at the mall or the golf course etc... BUT I JUST LAUGH AT IT NOW AND SHAKE MY HEAD AND THINK ABOUT SOMETHING ELSE. THEN IT IS GONE.

I'm not a doctor but I know 99% of this is in your mind.

I'm still here 3 years later and feel great.

We live in a very stressful time in history. You'll be ok, just shake your head and laugh. lol lol lol

Darin





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by DBG14, May 18, 2008
Oh ya I'm a 42 year old male.

LOL

TAKE CARE EVERYONE

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by samanthajane, May 19, 2008
Hi,

I get that all the time. I lie in bed and my brain starts thinking that at some point I will die and then that will be it. I will be all alone experiencing the pain and then I will just not be here anymore! I think it maybe gets triggered by worrying about suffering alone. Are you feeling lonely?


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by wlder, May 21, 2008
i used to feel the same way.
but only, has anyone ever had the issue of lying there and you feel like your body "fell asleep on your mind"?
like you know you're still awake but your body wont move , you try and lift your arms and nothing happens.or your literally laying face down and cannot lift yourself  to breathe but you know whats going on around you cuz you can still hear everything in the background like tv and radio. . .? i hope i m  not the only one. and if there is someone else who knows about it,  what  the hell is it please? yea but all that came with a full dose of anxiety and depression.i felt like "why am i alive?"how do you get help mith anxiety or depression? who do you go see so you can go ahead and get diagnosed? thanx

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by Odin999, May 21, 2008
wlder,
You might be experiencing the natural physical paralysis that occurs with different stages of sleep. Take a look at sleep paralysis in Wikipedia.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sleep_paralysis

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by heatherhansen129, Jul 08, 2008
I have the same issue, sometimes my panik attacks are so bad I breathe waaay to fast and my hands close up so tight my fingernails dig into my palms. Too much oxogyn to the brain. Its been a year since I've had one but I COULD go full blown into one I just LAUGH like DBG14 said to do - more or less laugh at myself and how my brain takes me on so many roads of worrying until it becomes a physical reaction to my thoughts. GOSH, until I realized this I went to the ER 3 times thinking I was for SURE having a heart attack. I'm 22 yrs old! I work in the finance industry for the governement tho...so STRESS is a HUGE part of my life. My eye twitches now! Unsure if its from hitting my head, or stress or BOTH! lol Good luck to you and take care!

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by peekawho, Aug 01, 2008
I mentioned something before to you about my ex husband and his severe anxiety and panic attacks.  He was totally against pharmaceuticals as a treatment, but with the very first dose he ever tried, his life changed completely.  

Certainly not that everyone responds that dramatically...but he did.  I witnessed it.  Nothing short of miraculous for him.  

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by itsallwaves, Aug 01, 2008
I'm going med-free for as long as humanly possible for a variety of reasons.  But I truly appreciate your advice, Peek.

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by peekawho, Aug 01, 2008
I respect that.  Just thought I'd mention it.  

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by ian765, Aug 01, 2008
well, are you taking a medication called pretnizone? if so get off of it....i had a very bad allergic reaction from it 3 months ago and had a very sever panic attack, my blood pressure flew to 198\122 which is extremely bad. but then after that hospital trip i got better but still got panic attacks, bassicaly what i did to get over them was to tell myself everythings alright and took a long hot shower to relax myself, so either find a way to relax yourself or go to a doctor.
and panic attacks are not harmful its all in the mind.

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by itsallwaves, Aug 01, 2008
I'm not taking ANY medications, other than aspirin every other day.  I'm attacking the panic attacks by working on various focusing techniques (as well as other tools).

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by ian765, Aug 01, 2008
thats good, are your panic attacks like a lions chasing you? or do you feel light headed and scared your heart will stop?

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by itsallwaves, Aug 01, 2008
They usually come out of the blue. I stark shaking, feel an incredible sense of impending doom, and get heart palpitations. The sensation is that death is imminent. Lately, they are getting worse at night.

In a word, they are absolutely horrible.

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by ian765, Aug 01, 2008
have you seen a doctor about this? because if they are getting that bad to you haveing heart palpitaions, this needs to be checked out.

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by itsallwaves, Aug 01, 2008
I did awhile ago. I have Mitral Valve Prolapse, and this contributes to the anxiety (and vice versa).

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by ian765, Aug 01, 2008
then you should look into some herbal tea, or anxiety relaxing medication....theres a tea out there called calm its 100% herbal and it does wonders. if it doesnt work out for you look into some anxiety meds otherwise i dont know what else you could do.

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by itsallwaves, Aug 01, 2008
I  find that chamomile tea helps a lot. It also calms and soothes the stomach. There is a high incidence of IBS in folks with panic disorders. And I have that too. The tea helps both it seems.

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by Ariom63, Apr 27, 2009
I grew up drinking Chamomile....when my kids were younger and they didn't feel so good, I would always make them a cup and they thought I was insane.  That was until they drank it, and now both of them keep in their own homes.

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