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Jul 28, 2009 - 5 comments

i am so tired of waking each day with a list a mile long of chores to accomplish...and being so overwhelmed with where on earth to start, the day is almost over with!  what the hell is going on?  i have always been energetic and a hard worker...and now i feel like a sloth...it's miserable and embarrassing.  every evening mike comes home from work...i hear the door open and a slight panic runs through me...did i do enough today?  do i look ok or like a slob?  why isn't dinner ready??? my poor husband...i suck as a wife...did i do enough with the kids today?  i am doubting every single thing i do and bashing myself for every single thing i have NOT done...i was always proud of my life and how i raised the kids, ran the household  and did a wonderful job as mikes wife...and now it's only shame...i just want to know why...why is this my life and more importantly WHY can't i change it when i want to sooooooo badly?????

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by boldsojah4christ, Jul 28, 2009
You can change sis you have the power! Remember that note you left 4ur new friend! Saying one day this 2 shall pass! Well there it is! Words that come out ur mouth are powerful we can speak life & death n2 ourselves or other individuals with the words of the tongue!! I don't know how ur personal relationship is with Christ! But he holds the keys 2ur door! He's knocking @ it would you open up & let him in if u have not done so already! Love Shannon:

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by khorn668, Jul 28, 2009
Take one day at time. You sound like a good person. Just because life changes doesn't mean it's not going to ok. Just  think of your kids they need you. And you need them.  All you can do is your best. And your family will love no matter what! (that's what family is for)  May I ask have you talked to your husband about this or a dr? I know a little about how you feel I to have felt like this so many times in my life.

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by Bipolarbear72, Jul 28, 2009
Thanks my friends...to Shannon...Christ IS walking with me every single day...actually carrying me most of the year...I know from my journals I may sound like a hypocryte, but I do try to give my angst over to God...some days are better than others.
khorn...thanks...my husband is an incredible, loving and very patient understanding man...I am blessed...he never ever judges me..it is only I that do that the hardest.  I have spoken to my pdoc...but good grief I am already on 5 meds for the bipolar and depression...how much more can I take???? I guess I'm certifiable NUTS! I am trying to have a good outlook today...I am getting a few things done around the house...taking it one room at a time...lol!  Wish me luck...
Have a wonderful day! :)

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by boldsojah4christ, Jul 28, 2009
Amen sis well since thats the case you will be just fine!! Even when you stumble n fall christ will carry you the rest of the way!! Besides being bipolar 4 christ is a good thing lol shannon:


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by boldsojah4christ, Jul 28, 2009
Amen sis you will be just fine then!! As long as you continue 2 walk with christ even when you stumble & fall! He will pick u up & carry you the rest of the way!!! Shannon:

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