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Praise God...being Born Again

Jul 29, 2009 - 15 comments
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I was Born Again way back in 1978...somewhere along the way I lost my way..Backslid as they say..When I lost my 4 month old daughter to SIDS in 1991, rather then seeking the comfort of God I totally turned my back on God, blamed Him and wanted nothing to with God.
Then went on trudging through life, not really caring about what I should have cared about...the almighty dollar will do that to you..I was more concerned about giving my family what they wanted more then what they really needed. I worked about 60 to 70 hours a week. I was salesmanager of a car dealership, was making very good money, but I was never home, always working, sometime traveling. The wife and kids had the materialistic things they needed, but as the head of the household, I didn't make sure they had the spiritual things they needed.
I am sure some will know whats coming next, I didn't see important things that were missing,mainly me. I figured as long as they had the material things,everything would be fine. Well I didn't seee my wife and I growing apart at a fast pace, mykids growing up without God in thier lives, and me always working. I got sick in June of 2003, by September of that same year, I was heading for divorce and my kidneys were in complete failure, starting dialysis. One thing led to the other, life kept spirialing down the drain really fast.
I lost pretty much everything I had except my children. Lost my marrriage, my house, and many other things. Then to make matters worst by 2009 I have been adicted to percoset and morphine for 4 years. I was going to a pain specialist, I do not blame the doctor for my adicition that was me
I have had a Aunt and dialysis nurse and a cousin all praying for me to come back to the Lord. 140 days ago something told me inside, to just stop taking the meds, well I did, and the next 3 weeks were really bad. The physical withdrawls were horrible, you get to see what a little piece of hell is like. Through prayer and my wonderful family here at MH I made it through. Well I rededicated my life to God, and my life has changed 180 degrees. I have had not one craving, depression is completely gone. I have not been this happy in 20 years, I am at peace, an inner peace that is so joyful.
Some will say it is because I am not taking meds anymore,but it is by the Grace of God that my life has changed. I thank God everyday. Life is so good and I praise God for being back in His bossom. The power of our wonderful Savior and our Father is powerful, God is an awsome God.  Amen...God Bless...brian


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by boldsojah4christ, Jul 29, 2009
Amen bro! Awesome testimony it is by the grace of God that ur still here! Like so many Christians we turn our back on God 4 many reasons! He will let us go 4 awhile just 2 remind us that once we accept his son Jesus n2 our lives! Our lives don't belong 2us anymore! But we belong 2 God! Just like the book of job he lost everything! But once he stopped questioning God! God restored everything back 2 him! Amen jolly welcome back home the prodigals son! ((((B.O.L.D.))))

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by April2, Jul 29, 2009
Praise God! Isn't he wonderful?! And he's so gracious to always take us back even when we've turned our backs on him! That's how much he loves us! He's always standing there with open arms. Remember the prodigal son in the bible? I can so relate! What an awesome God we serve!

Brian, God turned my daughter around too, in a dramatic way just last year. She started really going down the wrong path and it was getting worse and worse. I won't tell you all she did but she did try some drugs, hung out with the wrong people, and was hurting herself and deeply depressed and angry. We were bewildered by all of it and really felt like a spiritual attack was on our family. I was on my knees so much for that child, just crying out to God in tears over and over. We had so many people praying for her but it looked so bleak for so long. I finally had to admit her to a hospital when she hurt herself again and my heart was so broken. It was the hardest thing I ever had to do! She was only 15. But she never hurt herself after that. We had her in counseling for 2 years. We tried everything. She did get better but was still so rebelliousn angry and depressed. Last Summer she went on a youth retreat and had an encounter with God. She said God had been speaking to her that whole week! I didn't know what to think. I was afraid to believe it was real. But it was! The change in her was so incredible, so dramatic. She's a different kid today. You can even see it in her face. She has peace and a softness there now. She's happy now! She loves the Lord and is trying to live for him now. I am so in awe of God and what he has done in her life!
He is real, everyone! There's no explaining this dramatic difference in her except by the grace of God. I feel like he snatched her from a cliff that she was dangling precariously from. I will always be grateful to him for not giving up on her and for bringing her back!

I am so glad you found God again, Brian. I am so happy for you! :)

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by AnnieBrooke, Jul 29, 2009
I am glad for you, Brian.  However one worships and whatever religion or spiritual beliefs a person has, there is tremendous hope and love in the experience of a person who has gone through hell and experienced redemption.  I am glad especially that you did not lose your children.  

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by outotown, Jul 31, 2009
Wonderful testimony to the grace of our Lord. Think of this as Bold said many of us has turned thier back on God at some point in life.
  Now think of this, when we frist came to him, and then later may have went astray, God is all knowing so he knew the frist time we came to him, that later we was going to trun our back on him RIGHT, and he saved us anyway thats Love and Grace

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by boldsojah4christ, Jul 31, 2009
Amen!!! God is calling all prodigal sons & daughters back home!!  ((((B.O.L.D.))))

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by Brrrrad, Jul 31, 2009
That inner peace is awesome, Jesus will never let you go, he came for the "sick'. We ALL need him!!
Stay Strong!!  Brad in nc

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by boldsojah4christ, Jul 31, 2009
Amen brrrrad!!!

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by jimi1822, Jul 31, 2009
GOD Bless You Brian!!! GOD always Believed in you, thank GOD you started to Believe in Yourself and what a gift you are to soooo many of us here on MH....


                                                                                               much Love, much prayer, much light....


                                                                                                                                        <3 jimi (little wing) <3

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by jollyman069, Aug 01, 2009
Thank you all so much for your comments...God is such an awsome God....I praise Him everday...brian

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by Cherie762, Aug 04, 2009
God Bless You Brian...one thing I have noticed about most "healers" be they drs nurses, is they do believe, my fav teacher is a rn and she sits a reads her bible during quiet times in school, what a wonderful role model, I do admire her. I have long been a "lazy' christian . i pray I feel him I believ, but I dont go to church, when I was in the hospital I knew that when i recovered its time for me to go back to his house.

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by dominosarah, Aug 04, 2009
I have finally realized that i have not been alone thru my life......losing my dad and getting clean was the hardest times in my life.....the footprints is one of my favorites and i have it hanging in my house.  I read it everyday......many times there was just one set of footprints......God has been so busy with me these last few years....i hope he isnt tired.        sara

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by Burrpatch, Aug 04, 2009
"Therefore if any man be in Christ, he is a new creature: old things are passed away; behold, all things are become new" ( 2 Corinthians 5:17).

John 3:3 ---  In reply Jesus declared, "I tell you the truth, no one can see the kingdom of God unless he is born again."
4"How can a man be born when he is old?" Nicodemus asked. "Surely he cannot enter a second time into his mother's womb to be born!" 5Jesus answered, "I tell you the truth, no one can enter the kingdom of God unless he is born of water and the Spirit. 6Flesh gives birth to flesh, but the Spirit gives birth to spirit. 7You should not be surprised at my saying, 'You must be born again.' 8The wind blows wherever it pleases. You hear its sound, but you cannot tell where it comes from or where it is going. So it is with everyone born of the Spirit."


MATTHEW CH. 7:24 --- "Therefore everyone who hears these words of mine and puts them into practice is like a wise man who built his house on the rock. 25The rain came down, the streams rose, and the winds blew and beat against that house; yet it did not fall, because it had its foundation on the rock.

Thank you so much for your testimony Brian and God Bless you my friend !!    ~Burrpatch



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by laine824, Aug 04, 2009
AWWW The power of PRAYER. Amen to you Brian. Your testimony is going to be a blessing to others. I am soooo glad you are back in God's loving arms. It is good to have you in my circle of prayer partners. See you Thurs. at church.

                                                                                                           Love ya, Laine

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by jollyman069, Aug 17, 2009
Praise God for all of you tht have supported me....Love in Jesus Christ...brian

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by LIL_LADY24, Aug 20, 2009
Praise the Lord for his mercy and his grace.........The Lord is good and all the time good is he!!!!!!!!   Its amazing how God heals people in the mist of HELL...........The Lord will never leave us nor foresake us...........I am glad that you made a full recovery and your back on the battlefield with the rest of us christians!!!!!!!  Welcome back!!!!!!

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