Jul 29, 2009
I was Born Again way back in 1978...somewhere along the way I lost my way..Backslid as they say..When I lost my 4 month old daughter to SIDS in 1991, rather then seeking the comfort of God I totally turned my back on God, blamed Him and wanted nothing to with God.
Then went on trudging through life, not really caring about what I should have cared about...the almighty dollar will do that to you..I was more concerned about giving my family what they wanted more then what they really needed. I worked about 60 to 70 hours a week. I was salesmanager of a car dealership, was making very good money, but I was never home, always working, sometime traveling. The wife and kids had the materialistic things they needed, but as the head of the household, I didn't make sure they had the spiritual things they needed.
I am sure some will know whats coming next, I didn't see important things that were missing,mainly me. I figured as long as they had the material things,everything would be fine. Well I didn't seee my wife and I growing apart at a fast pace, mykids growing up without God in thier lives, and me always working. I got sick in June of 2003, by September of that same year, I was heading for divorce and my kidneys were in complete failure, starting dialysis. One thing led to the other, life kept spirialing down the drain really fast.
I lost pretty much everything I had except my children. Lost my marrriage, my house, and many other things. Then to make matters worst by 2009 I have been adicted to percoset and morphine for 4 years. I was going to a pain specialist, I do not blame the doctor for my adicition that was me
I have had a Aunt and dialysis nurse and a cousin all praying for me to come back to the Lord. 140 days ago something told me inside, to just stop taking the meds, well I did, and the next 3 weeks were really bad. The physical withdrawls were horrible, you get to see what a little piece of hell is like. Through prayer and my wonderful family here at MH I made it through. Well I rededicated my life to God, and my life has changed 180 degrees. I have had not one craving, depression is completely gone. I have not been this happy in 20 years, I am at peace, an inner peace that is so joyful.
Some will say it is because I am not taking meds anymore,but it is by the Grace of God that my life has changed. I thank God everyday. Life is so good and I praise God for being back in His bossom. The power of our wonderful Savior and our Father is powerful, God is an awsome God. Amen...God Bless...brian