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Hellish Life

Aug 04, 2014 - 0 comments

I've created my own personal hell by the careless decisions I've made in regards to my body.  With age and the fleeting of time and loved ones in my life I've come to realize that hell (regardless of what some religions teach) does not have to be FINAL.  My God gave me free will to make changes.  He gave me the signs and tools to dig myself out before I became too "blind" to see.  I've also came to the realization that when we are depressed and full of self-pity we are at our Most Selfish state of mind.  This life is not and never was only about me.  I have wasted so much time medicating myself and losing focus on why I am really here.  I have intentionally set myself up to fail all of my "life's assignments" as a daughter, a sister, a wife, a mother, a grandmother, a friend.  I have done this to myself,  but not anymore.  The fire within me is starting to heat up once more.  I crave change in my life that will impact not only my future but the future of those around me for the better.  I AM digging myself out of this deep, dark, lonely hole.  I want out of this nightmare.  I will never stop Chasing Freedom.  I AM going to be Free.

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