This is day 4 or 5 of my withdrawal after doing oxies 40-120mg every 1-2 days for over 8 months, I did a sort of tapering method that involved withdrawal 4 days then used 1 40mg, withdrawal 5 days then took one 40mg, and now im on that next cycle and truely dont feel like I ever have to do oxies again! ( This doesnt work all that great )
I think I had some kind of revelation last night after having such a minimal withdrawal and being able to sleep at last, although twitching, had positive GOOD DREAMS, not nightmares for once. At 10:30 I went to bed and could see some kind of devil form like oxy come over me and make me shake but I toughed it out and thought of how strong I am and how I could literally do anything like all the weight off my shoulders was realesed and made me relax to full control. Earlier that night I walked by my dealers house ( next street over ) on my way to the store with money. I didnt stop and my dealer was even outside in the front lawn looking at me. It was one of the hardest things I've done, I feel like a new person. It is incredible, I woke up this morning started blasting the music and dancing in my chair opening medhelp.org
fast as I could cuz this is the first good thing I have to say in a year. I even got a call while dancing telling me I had a second interview for a job tomorrow, so hopefully I'll be working by wednesday and free of boredom!
If you feel un-motivated and half asleep in the morning nothings better than pumping Mambo No.5 by Lou Bega haha you will want to dance!
Thanks for anyones support and gl to you all it just takes some motivation