Aug 31, 2014
Last night I didn't go to bed till 4-4:30 am this morning. I was awoken at an unknown time twice before finally waking up a final time around 1:00 pm.
After I got up, my mood was slightly uplifting since no one was home.
Throughout the day I stayed in the basement and in the dark, pacing, listening to music as usual. The whole day I didn't feel out of sorts or anything that would make me feel different than my usual mood.
Later towards the night my family came back and that's when I instantly became irritated. I was trying to keep away from them, until I had to come upstairs to get something and they stopped me to do something. My irritation started to elevate and soon I was getting really mad. Finally they started instructing me that I had to do something and I was expected to take care of something at a great length. That's when I became extremely angered and tried to leave the room. I eventually did and so I took my anger out on myself, by mentally screaming it out.I started cursing at myself and saying I wished everyone would die and I start pacing again, trying to take care of the matter without them getting involved because I know they'll just argue with me about none-important things and bring me down more with their criticism until I've become depressed.