May 31, 2008
It has been 3 days since my final AC treatment and I feel like ****!!! My stomach hurts and EVERYTHING i eat comes back up. I am starting to feel mentally defeated. I have cried atleast 3 times today, my fiance must think I am a basket case but he just keeps on loving me.
Sometimes I wonder if I am strong enough for this journey. I have to be, I must suck it up and keep on keepin on. God has blessed me so much that I dont want to let him down by complaining and second guessing his blessing.
I just want to feel healthy and strong again. I know I sound pitiful today but its just the way I feel.