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Oct 21, 2014 - 12 comments

I am not better yet.  I feel like I could use another week in bed at least.  But I have to teach tomorrow night because I don't have the money to pay a sub.  I'm going to the doctor.  I feel panicked.  I hurt so much still.  I don't know what to do.  Part of me never wants to go back.  I realized I am feeling a little traumatized from everything that has happened.  I need to talk to someone.  I'm going to the doctor now.

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by jugglin, Oct 21, 2014
Oh girl. Is it possible to cancel and reschedule the class?  I know that is not ideal, but honey you still need to be resting. By rescheduling, your kiddos get their class back, but you get a bit more time to heal. How long were the Dr's orders for rest?  You need to make sure you heal that little body of yours...it is going to be busy soon working on making that baby for you.:)

Please post back how Dr's appt goes.  

Thinking about u and saying prayers for a wonderful progress report at Dr's, continued healing, strength and inner peace.
xoxoxo

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by msdelight, Oct 21, 2014
Lulu the body needs time to heal. Especially tiny bodies who have very little in reserve. Whatever you do, please don't panic as it will sap precious energy that you need to heal. You had to fight an infection as well. I'm sure you must be horribly anemic. You do need another week at least to bounce back from from all this. Cancel like Juggy said. It's the right thing to do for everyone. Every one knows your post op.  Eat well. All protein and citrus. If you follow no special restrictions, red meat and one glass of red wine daily. Hang in there. It's the home stretch. You're a champion!

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by weaver71, Oct 21, 2014
All the things outside of your immediate health, can be rearranged, changed, or abandoned. There is really only one important thing right now, that you heal and get your strength back. Pushing for more can come later, you only get one chance at having a body. Don't make situations more important than health. Just a suggestion.

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by nonights, Oct 21, 2014
I am sure rescheduling the class is the only thing to do lu. You shouldnt be out yet.

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by Amandag78, Oct 21, 2014
Oh Lu, im so sorry. Please let us know when you can that everything is ok.
You didnt get out of surgery that long ago, so hopefully this is all just lingering symptoms of the op.
I will be thinking of you and preying for good news.
Love you girl xoxo

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by lulu747, Oct 21, 2014
Ok Guys.  Doc very worried.  I am extremely inflamed and my bowel sounds are overactive. I have been going a lot and it is so painful I feel like blacking out.  She fears I am having a Crohn's flare on top of everything else and wants to put me back in the hospital.  The hospital is TERRIBLE here so I agreed to two days of a very bland diet, just soup and clear fluids.  I am cancelling the class (It's my adults I have the kids class covered)  She will see me again Thursday and if there is no improvement I have no choice but to go in to hospital on IV fluid.  I just went for a full battery of blood tests as well.
My mom is coming over to make chicken soup.  I hope this works.
Love you guys thanks for hangin with me.
xo
Lu

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by clean_in_ks, Oct 21, 2014
Inflammation = REST..................glad your Mom is coming over and making you some chicken soup......

The opposite of resistance = surrender to how it is NOW.........the rest will all work out.  Release the CONTROL switch ok?

Please be gentle with yourself.....you've only got ONE you, Lu........

Much love,
Connie




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by lulu747, Oct 21, 2014
I just had plain soup with very little veg and my gut is still twisting and turning.  I cannot believe this.  My surgeon said she saw NO Crohn's in my colon and the endoscopy I had two months earlier was clear also.  Yet I have blood and mucous in my stool (sorry if TMI) and it feels like broken glass is going through my intestines.  I don't know what to think.  I'm so tired of this....So very tired of this.

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by meegWpaw, Oct 22, 2014
whats going on baby?  did I miss a update since this j?  im a little out of it please forgive me but I love you just as much in fact more

I hope you are feeling ok.

I will write more.

I love you

Meegs

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by lulu747, Oct 22, 2014
I am still in really rough shape but don't think the answer is the hospital.  I am putting all of my energy into resting and getting well.  This is all I can do.
I'm here Meegs if you wanna chat.
I'm in a lot of pain but I am keeping my spirits up with visits from good friends.
Love
Lu

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by VICourageous, Oct 22, 2014
REST!! Every time we rest or sleep our body's do a good cell turn over...Remember the Flight-to-Fight hormone that comes out in a stressful situations..I just read a lot about it in one of my Heart books too..SO that tells me to tell you to CHILL for awhile..Mind-Body & Soul needs rest..Everything will work out in its own way and in time..lol
Be Safe Lu because we love you & want you to heal..The Brain is a very powerful thing. I will be sending many Prays..I do have a good Pray Church Group I go to on Thurs..Maybe you will feel something tomorrow evening..lol

Bless U Always!!

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by lulu747, Oct 23, 2014
Thanks Vic!

I just did some research and I think it may be my kidneys.  I have really bad pain in my right flank and I had a UTI post op that I did a week of antibiotics for but it doesn't feel gone.  I am going to the doctor in the am.
Thank you for the prayers.  I need em
xo
Lu

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