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Nov 03, 2014 - 0 comments
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I'm trying to see how my mood is effected during the whole day.. and try living my life as it is going to be.. alll hopes are for the best... it got really bad yesterday Sunday 2nd...prayed lastnight.. Lord, please bring me back...take this away from me..i'm a spiritual and religious person...i first my thorazine 50 mg and tried so hard to calm down.. i was way up there on one of those highs...buddy;s been in the bed with an earache.. water on his ears for 4 months now and his father... my father in law has just retired and has picked a fight with me everyday since... likes it;s easy living as caregiver for my husband that has cmt... this has put him in the bed...so if i he can't go i can't.. so i have to go through the ethernet to continue to speak to other adults..my father in law helps us, since we're on a fixed income..everything is in his name... i just live here and cook and half *** keep a clean house...
   so heres today.. i've got some xanax to calm me back down since mine were stolen...and try to live today as best as i can and try to disipline myself enough to not go along with the **** starters ways... he is already in here on the phone got off and come in here sighing as he sat down... he creeps me out.. i've gone to extremes to stay away from his ***... remove myself and deadbolt and lock my door to my other room on the other side of the house... he broke in friday night on me... then banged on it after i was told again to go the other direction to escape his wrath...bangin saying there was food ready, i better get up and eat...in a thorazine stuper.. i don't want him bothering me about anything and i should be able to have my own privacy somewhere in my own home.. just because he lives next door and owns my home does not give him the authority to break in on me with a tool through the door to bother me in anyway


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