Oct 11, 2009
Ok, im not sure anyone will read this but i guess it will make me feel a little better by writing it. Me and Trinity's father is not together anymore and he moved out end of August. He actually had the nerves to say he wants a paternity test, WTH, how could he ask for one when he was the one layn down with me everytime i said im ovulating or asking me when will i be ovulating, oh well, we go to court next month. Im pissed bcuz i have PPD, anxiety and major lack of sleep, i dont think i been sleep since the day i went in for my induction on 9-17-09. He comes over to spend time with the baby but has not spent no longer than 4 hours the times he comes, it s-u cks he gets to sleep in at his place or dont have to get up and warm up bottles, and on top of it, he wants joint custody, WHAT, are you kidding me, we are talking about a person who feeds her and says i cant get her to burp after 2 min then hands her to me, or say why is she cryn, here take her, i dont no why she is cryn, well i am RELEARNING this all over again myself, my son is 14 i am rusty at this. One day he came by for an hour, fed her, held her and said ok, i ll be back in 3 days wth, why waste our time. Im on the verge of not letting him come by and letting the court determine his visitation days/hours. As far as joint custody, i dont plan on givn him that while she is so young, mayb in a few years we can talk about it again.
Im also pissed off bcuz here i think i have found the person i want to spend the rest of my life with and have a family with and here i am AGAIN a single parent. I did not wait 14 years to be a single parent again, i did not wait 8 yrs to get into a relationship and let him in my sons life for it to end. I did not invest two years of long distance traveling and supporting him, i practically should have paid taxes in Georgia, thats how much i was there, not jus for 3 days but i would be there for like 2-3 weeks at a time, and sometimes i would be there twice a month, ughhhh, i am so freakn angry its unreal
i no i have to do what is best for my 2 kids, and i will. im jus so upset at the moment