Oct 16, 2009
In a bit more than three hours, I'll be saying "I do" with my third bride. We're both old enough to know what we're doing. We've gone through some rather intensive study, assessment, introspection, etc., and spent much time in prayer. This is a big step, though we don't want others to make a big fuss over us. It's enough that we'll make a big fuss over each other, and for a long time to come.
They say love is blind, but I disagree. True love sees it all, and loves anyway, right through all of it. Nancy and I understand each other, I believe, and we're still very excited to be making this journey together.
I have two major concerns. First, I hope my health doesn't become a burden to Nancy. My eyes are as bad today as they've been in a while, with the haze now more on the left side than before. On the right, I made a big mistake at work yesterday, because I didn't see something correctly on the right side of a page. In self-analysis, the only thing that I can surmise is that I saw the circle around the "No" response on the form, and thought it was around the adjacent word "Yes" due to the fact that I saw both words and the circle all doubled, overlapping each other.
My other concern is that I want to be a good example for the young man who is about to become my stepson. He is a great kid, but I know more than a little about the difficulties that can arise in stepfamilies. I also know what a terror I was to Mom and Dad when I was his age (he'll be 14 at Thanksgiving), and for several years thereafter. He sees his father often, but I get the sense that he can see some of his father's faults and frailties, and understands why his mother couldn't keep the household intact. I don't want to take the place of his father, but I do hope to provide a positive male role model for him as he goes through a critical phase of his maturation. I know kids do better when they have adult figures in their lives who will model a responsible life for them.
Well, I've rambled enough. Time to hit the showers.