Oct 26, 2009
Hello... I'd like to share my own personal experience with smoking Crack... maybe it could help you better understand the drug?
Okay... one thing I will share with you, Crack Cocaine is an extremely destructive drug... by far, the single most destructive drug I have ever done in my entire life.
It is also by far the most pleasurable drug... but that pleasure is very misleading, short lived, and the destruction it causes lasts much longer. Essentially it is evil in it's purest form.
Essentially Cocaine blocks dopamine re uptake at the synapse. Causing high levels of Dopamine at the synapse... it stimulates many many nerves at once and it is this feeling that is very pleasurable.
But let me tell you, each hit you take is like a strong electrical current flowing through the brain, short circuiting neural connections and memories previously developed. Essentially it causes a loss of memory, function, and development with each and every hit.
The day after I experience Crack Cocaine... My brain feels very fuzzy, electrified, i feel withdrawn. I just think about having more. Even though you take a hit... and within 15 minutes you already want another one. That is because the brain will make less dopamine, in an attempt to try and keep equilibrium.
You have to take your husbands addiction very seriously, Crack is the most destructive drug I have ever experienced... everything falls apart when people use crack... it ruins lives, and I have seen it happen. The ruin it causes cascades onto other people who may even be completely innocent to the direct effects of the drug...
I completely lost interest in women, pursuing women, I only wanted to pursue crack... The thought of women wouldn't even come across my mind while using this drug. A previous poster was right, he can't love you when he's in love with crack.
You will have to let him know how you feel about his addiction, what it's doing to him, and of course how it's affecting you.
How did i quit? Well I just stopped... my parents love me too much, and I just realize the high level of destruction it causes, even just using for a month( every 3 days or so). And of course the 1000 dollar loss in my bank account was also a real wake up call.
I first used Crack about 2 years ago, but I wasn’t ever the type of person who would use daily. At first maybe just once or twice a month for about 4 months, then I quit for 8 months, then somehow I met a dealer at the bar, and did it 2 weekends in a row… then quit for another 8 months… then I thought my life was over (that’s a whole other story) and used about every third day for a month straight… then stopped again for good… one month ago. Now I know my life isn’t over, and there’s absolutely no reason to ruin a perfectly good life.
Well… the way I stopped was simply by thinking of all the damage it causes, and only associating the drug with damage, rather than as a form of pleasure…
The biggest thing… The day after using my vision would be blurry, my mind would be blurry… it’s like someone ran an electrical current through my entire body the day after.
Also… even after abstaining from use for a month after, I would recognize that I would forget things that I should know, whether it be a word, a name, or even an idea I once knew. Thoughts wouldn’t flow through my brain as they once did, and my ideas wouldn’t construct in an orderly fashion.
There was another time when I used when I had just been introduced to crack… I used quite a bit, and I remember laying in bed and my heart was beating very sporadically. It would beat faster and faster, then it would beat out of rhythm, and after laying there for awhile like this it felt like my heart was too tired to beat! It felt exhausted like it just wanted to take a rest! I am very lucky in that moment, I remember thinking I just wish I had this cocaine out of my system once and for all! For a solid 2 weeks after my chest was in a continual pain and felt stiff… My heart was damaged that night.
Then there’s also the lung damage done… The thing about smoking crack, is that users want to take big lung fulls, and hold it for as long as possible. This is very damaging to the lungs, especially if the smoke isn’t cooled through water, or a long hose. I would also say the smoke is very pure… and you can even blow the smoke to someone else, and they will still feel the effects, or put the smoke into a balloon, and take another inhale. You can even smoke it and if you hold it in long enough, and wasn’t the biggest hit ever, you will actually absorb it all.
The high itself is short lived, you can actually feel yourself go up, up, and way up, and peak shortly after the exhale… and then you are at that level for about a minute…after that you can actually feel yourself come down, like on a roller coaster, then you come to a high where you feel satisfied for about 10 minutes… after that you want more.
As for how addictive crack is??? Well this is a tough question to answer because based on my experience it is not physically addicting. I can taste it again in my mouth and throat about 24 hours, although it’s not a very strong craving, however that might be about the only physical craving I will get. It is however VERY psychologically addictive, and the single most reinforcing drug. Reinforcing, as in that was soooo good… the mind remembers the feeling and wants to pursue it again and again and again.
I don’t know about other people, but it took me about 2 weeks to forget about how good the feeling is and move on with my life. It’s these thoughts of using the drug that cause people to pursue it, rather than a physical addiction as in the case of tobacco and heroin.
The good news is that the body has a remarkable ability to heal itself, and after refraining from use, I find that my mind feels better, my heart isn’t stiff or sore, and my lungs are also feeling better. It takes time to recover from the damage… and even so there will definitely be damage done to the mind, but as long as someone stays clean, they can recover their mind and make new neural connections as long as it’s not impaired. I need my mind to do other things, to hear the birds chirping, enjoy great food, goto work, solve problems, appreciate life and what it has to offer.
The best way to quit is to focus on how evil the drug really is, recognizing the damage it does to ones own self and those who surround that person. That’s when someone can wake up from a cocaine dream and finally recognize it as a nightmare.