Feb 09, 2015
I went grocery shopping last night and had intended on making spaghetti or some type of pasta for dinner for me and Ri.
I walked in the house and Corey had ordered pizza, he says 'there's pizza on the stove if you guys want some', I'm like 'we're okay'.
I start boiling water, etc.
He comes in to get more pizza, and then repeats "if you want some pizza, help yourself" in a 'tone'.
I'm like, 'no. thanks. I should probably start getting into the habit of making enough for dinner, so that I can take lunch to work - considering I won't have the money to eat out all the time, and I will be living so far away I won't be able to come home for lunch anymore'.
He replies, 'Oh! okay! well then get in the habit of not f*cking texting me, too then'.
I'm like "I really don't know who you've been talking to lately who's given you the impression that you're so much better than everyone, and that your sh*t don't stink. But it needs to stop'.
He's like 'just pack your stuff.... and go'.
I'm like, 'I plan to be out the end of the month, don't you worry about me'
He replies 'I would hope so'
I'm like, 'What the hell did I do to make YOU hate ME??? Like, seriously?! And why did you even tell me you 'stopped talking to amanda'?'
He's like, 'cause I did. I just left it alone and was waiting to see when she messaged me'
And I'm like, 'Oh! Okay! So she didn't message you right away and you decide to start working on things with me again? And then drop me like nothing, again, the minute she texted you back?'
He's like, 'i'm not getting into this with you because I don't need to explain myself'.
He continues to watch a movie for a few minutes as I just stare him down in awe...
I'm like, 'okay Corey, watch your movie. Avoid real life'.
And then proceeded to tell him how sorry I felt for him, etc.
And that was that.
He continues to baffle me on a daily basis. I know I shouldn't be trying to understand WTF he's doing, or thinking, because I know everyone says HE probably doesn't even know... But seriously...
So now I'm like, I have an U/S Wednesday... Do I even tell him? He told me not to text him, and I want to honor that. But I don't want to be shot down if I ask him if he wants to know about the baby at all.
Or do I just go to the ultrasound myself, and then leave pictures of it on the table / where he can see... and then just wait.
I've added the note he wrote when we were in the hospital the day I had Levi... Just so you guys can see the man he WAS. It won't let me attach a second picture. So I'll upload them just like, in the normal album.
I'm content with moving, and moving on with my life without him because I hate the person he's become. But I have to think about this baby... Do I go through the entire pregnancy without him, do I tell him updates, etc?