Feb 23, 2015
can I just say thank you? for absolutely everything?
as i'm still sad to be moving/ending things with someone I thought I'd really be with forever... I'm SO happy to have stumbled upon this website after losing Levi.
The friends I've made here have helped me through it and made me stronger after my loss, and helped me be strong enough to be there not only to offer my condolences and 'I've been there, you're totally normal's', but to let people know, this sh*t happens, and it ***** - BAD. But you will find it easier to deal with, and I say that instead of 'get over it'... because you never get over the loss of a child. Whether it was a blob of cells, a baby who you knew wouldn't make it outside of the womb, or a child who lived for a few yrs and something tragic happened.
The movie 'Return to Zero' says it best. A loss is still a loss. And that couldn't be truer.
In the coming weeks I'm probably going to be a blubbering baby at the thought I don't live with Corey, and that we are actually not together, but I know I'm going to come out of this such a better, stronger person who is less naïve. I will have a wall up, again. But now, I have 2 babies to think about. And one of them isn't so little anymore and I need to protect her heart better than my own.
T-minus 5 sleeps 'til I go into full on Momma Bear Mode.