Dec 15, 2009 - comments
yesterday at work i believe i was tested again.....one of my customers had broken her arm over the weekend....she whips out a BIG bottle of percocets...proceeds to ask me if i knew anyone that wanted any. i felt weak...shaky and a bit sick to my stomach. she only wanted 2 dollars for a perk 5 which is real cheap where i come from....just a little extra Christmas money....she must have had over 100 pills....i answered no but i m sure you won t have any problems selling them that cheap....she moved around in the bar asking everyone....about an hour went by and another person says Maria come here. he gives me a dollar tip all rolled up and says there s something inside for you. i open it and theres a $#@$^& perk in there. i told him i don t do them and handed it back...i felt so sick....he had no idea i was an addict and said he was sorry over and over....i told him ok..don t worry bout it...but it bummed the rest of the day out...came home and told my husband....he said you should have taken it for me...he has legit pain and can take them responsibly and only takes them when his pain is overwheming. i told him i just don t want any in my hands free or not.....i don t crave much at all....only when i m very upset and that is very rare...i m a very mellow person. i know he knows i m over it but it upset me. today i feel better....so after 17 months clean i realize i will still have challenges all the rest of my life.....never let your guard down...never... even for one single pill...God bless us and thank you for keeping me strong and well
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