Dec 26, 2009
So, I think this was the last time Rob and I are TTC. I'm turning 42 on Tuesday, December 29th which also happens to be 12 dpo. I'll start testing tomorrow and through Tuesday. I realize 10 dpo is early, but I bought a 3 pack of FRERs. I'm having period-like cramps tonight and my bbs are sore, but these are pretty normal for me. The cramps feel a bit different, though. I usually have them lower near my ovaries, but tonight they feel more like period cramps. I hope to God it's implantation cramping. I'll look for any bleeding tonight and tomorrow.
I don't really know why I get so hopeful every month any more. With a
diminished ovarian reserve, I don't know why I still think I could get pregnant.
I had a big meltdown last night. I was missing our baby so much. He would have been 2 on 12/21. I just sobbed and sobbed. I was so very sad. I woke Rob with my crying and he just held me until I could stop. He's such a wonderful husband.
So, wish me luck for the next 3 mornings of POAS. I'm not holding my breath by any means but still feel hopeful. I'm still hoping for a Birthday Miracle.