Jan 02, 2010
Although I am trying very hard to find myself again in all the mixed up things that are happening to me I seem to only see myself failing. It seems impossible to manage now the Mulitple Sclerosis (MS), the severe pain that accompanies it, the recently new emotional issues that seem to take me away from every part of my life, and then there is my getting off the morphine I have been on for more than two years to manage the severe pain that MS has left me in.
It seems there are fewer and fewer times that I am more than a shell of the person I once was. I have battled and came back from many hard hits from MS attacks and started trying to build some type of life for myself again - now all this and I hardly know how I can begin.
I guess it feel as though I was swallowed up into some deep black hole that I can not find may way out of. This too is only after several weeks. To have so much of me change. Scares me to death.