Jan 03, 2010
Wow, its already the end of week 12 ! I can't believe how much time has flown by - and sometimes it seems like its dragging soooo slow. I hope I can relax by the end of this week and enter 2nd trimester with some small sense of relief. After that, I hold my breath again til week 15 for amnio. Then for two weeks after that for the regular checkup and amnio results....and then the 20th week scan...Only then will I feel better about telling people. Its getting hard hiding my bump. Can't close my pants since week 11 - hope no one is onto us. I wore the long blue sweater for Christmas and even though it was hot in K&D's living room and SZ kept asking me if I wasn't hot too and don't I want to take off my sweater - I didn't because my pants were unbuttoned and the shirt I was wearing under was close fitting and would reveal our secret. I told K that people were hot and he opened the front door for air. He he ! I want to buy some "pg" pants but, I want to wait til after the first trimester is over. I'm superstitious and I guess I'm afraid I'll jinx myself. Need pants soon ! I discovered that if I wear buttonfly jeans - can button bottom two or sometimes three buttons and then the belt covers the rest. With the zip fly - well, with the button undone - zipper automatically stays down. it just looks like I forgot to rezip after a trip to the can. I'm paranoid about my sweater or shirt rising to show my open fly. I'm constantly pulling down my sweater / shirt. Good thing its winter and cold out. I've taken to wearing the big baggy sweaters ( man sized) that my mom knit for me back in the 80's. They are really huge on me and I'm sure people might be wondering since I'm not a baggy dresser...oh well, I hope they buy the cold story. Going to take it easy this week - snowed alot last night and when we went out I didn't lift heavy shovel loads - more pushing it out of the driveway. But, I felt some cramping in the centre. Note to self : Fool ! Are you freakin' crazy ? Take it easy ! Had buffet lunch and I'm still stuffed - and feeling nausea , heartburn - or both. I don't feel like eating supper even - will see. Got to feed the bean -one meal might not cut it .