Apr 10, 2015
I honestly don't know where to start. I know I've said it before in a journal awhile back but I still cannot get over Hannah. It'll be 6 months on the 14th of this month. I cry so much for my Boogie. My heart feels so broken with such bad news, every time I turn around it's something else. We found out yesterday that Brian's brother (who was diagnosed in Oct. 2014 with stage 4 lung cancer) now has cancer in his stomach and colon. It's spreading and he's to weak to continue chemo. He hasn't ate anything in a week and a half and they have him on nutrition bags. I told Brian it's all up to him now. I just don't see him coming back from this. :(
My dad had to have his yearly checkup for his CDL license and that's when they found that he had elevated PSA levels. Sent to the urologists and they did repeat blood work and his levels were okay, back to the urologists later for X-rays (since he has so many kidney stones all the time) and his levels went from 4.2 to 4.6. The Dr. said it could be from infection and they could put him on antibiotics for a month and recheck but with it going up like that in a months time they want to go straight for biopsy. He takes an aspirin a day and they want him off the aspirin for 2 weeks before they do the biopsy. I am so stressed it's not even funny. My daddy is a very hard working man. He's hardworking, strong and stubborn. I pray with everything in me it's something like infection or I've even read about prostatitis. I can't quit dwelling on this. Everything bad ALWAYS happens, how can I find the positive in this?? I cannot deal with that kind of news right now. SO much going on and everything is spinning out of control. :(
Anyone know anything about prostrate cancer?
And today I read a stupid thing that gives you a predicted percentage of if IVF will work for you. Here are my results.
IVFpredict.com Information Summary Woman's age: 36
Trying for: 8 + years
Own or donor eggs? Own eggs
Cause: Low sperm count
IVF attempts: First
Unsuccessful IVF attempts: Zero Pregnancy
history: Please Choose No IVF, no pregnancy
Will ICSI be used? Yes
Your chance of a live birth per IVF attempt is: 27.5%
It's so disheartening. 1.) I cannot afford to do this twice. I don't even know if I can afford it 1 time. 2.) Talk about a low percentage!! I can't believe it didn't give me the option of donor sperm. I know it's just probably a silly online predictor but still.