Jan 29, 2010
I don't know what to do so i guess i will write and get all my feelings out. I hate this. I really ****** do! I am having serious back pain and it kept me up all night. I have back issues but nothing like this. I can't even get comfortable. The fact that i am desperately craving makes it even harder for me to want to give in to the pain. My mind is telling me to go to the dr and tell her about my back pain even though she has never seen me for that before. But it is getting closer to closing time at the dr so if i just make it a little longer i won't be able to make an appt. I feel like i am starting all over on day one. Some people say on here about once you have gone through hell wd then you would never want to use again. That is just not true for me. I went through hell labor and still had more babies. Once your physical pain is gone then you are ready for that challenge again. You mind somehow makes you beleive it won't be that hard the next wd. I know everyone has their opinion but just venting mine. I better go keep my mind occupied before i do something stupid. I really want to make it through this and hope that i do.