Feb 26, 2010
Im so excited about the summer I have ahead of me The plan is!! I am leaving for Alaska on the 27th of may. Will be in Alaska for the whole summer doing something I love!!! I will be working with a programme called HOPE, I will be working with childern with disabilities, doing camps, fun activities and maybe a bit of home help to... I can not wait to get over there! i will be making most of my free time, sight seeing, shopping and making new friends!! On the 18th of August i will be going to Chicago for the week! I am so excited about this as I have heard so many amazing stories about it!!
I just hope everything goes the way I need it too... I just pray that nothing goes wrong between here and then!
The past year and a half as been the worst of my entire life. How I survived it baffles me!! I am a bit concerned that my anxiety will start back when I get over there :-( and then cause I am worrying about that now, my anxiety is a lil elevated!! I still have a long way to go. Need to do major work on self confidence, self esteem and some other issues!! I just do not want to give up... Not just yet!
I have over come a lot the past year and unfortunately feel Iv have hit a brick wall! There are some things I dont know how to change, like how to bulid my self confidence?? thats a hard one to do! Im hoping Alaska will make me be a bit more independant, maybe I wont rely on friends and family as much!! Maybe then I can be my own person!
All I know is, life is a struggle, and feeling this bad about yourself is not healthy, so Im going to try and work on all this!!!
Just need inspiration!!!!