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Farewell, my beloved brother

Sep 26, 2015 - 11 comments






My brother, age 63, lost the battle for his life this week. He died of complications of pancreatic cancer with metastases, cirrhosis, diabetes, and COPD. He suffered from painful ascites, hematomas, wounds that wouldn't heal, labored breathing, crushing fatigue, and mind-bending pain. In a testament to his indomitable spirit, he survived 14 months after being diagnosed in July 2014, several months longer than his doctors predicted.
I was amazed at his fighting spirit, but I am relieved that his suffering is finally over. I'll miss him terribly.
He wasn't just my brother--he was my confidante, partner in crime, and best buddy.
H had a wicked sense of humor, which he maintained up until the end, and I'm going to miss that most of all.
Good night, my brother. Rest easy till we meet again.

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by mzkity, Sep 27, 2015
I'm so sorry Sue. Wow he sounded like a fighter. Peace to all that miss him, you'll meet again.    

Thanks for sharing Sue, I was wondering.

Lol. I never forgot your comment in the PM about " don't worry about the boxes, they can sit there"  some really are, haha!


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by WyoSue, Sep 27, 2015
In the grand cosmic scheme of things, boxes seem such an insignificant matter, don't they?
How are you feeling these days? Did you go to Sturgis? I still have my bike, and put another 1,000 miles on it this summer.  I don't ride after dark, and stay within a 10-mile radius of home. Kinda boring, but better than not riding.

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by hepcandme, Sep 28, 2015
So sorry for your loss.

What a journey your brother and his friends and family went through

Take care of yourself and let people be kind to you

~ Linda

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by WyoSue, Sep 28, 2015
Thanks, Linda. It was a journey through hell. I don't know how my brother was able to keep his sense of humor. He was in denial about the seriousness of his condition up until the end. I think that actually helped him survive as long as he did. He just went about his business like nothing was wrong, until his final week when he was too weak to stand. Never went into hospice care, and was adamant about staying in his house. Told us he wanted to die at home and he got his wish.
I'm feeling well, but decided to get another viral load test last week. Just to be sure.
How are you feeling?

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by hepcandme, Sep 29, 2015
I'm feeling not so great - mostly fatigue, brain fog and a type of lethargy that is depressing but I also feel better in some respects every day. No more headaches or nausea and sleep is better, sorta

Sue, I didn't realize that you were going through all of this and I am really sorry that this happened at a time when you were not feeling so great either

Sometimes I do a little meditation about all the things that I am grateful for and how lucky I am. Helps me to sleep rather than worrying or crying about something I have no control over

Perhaps you could do that with the funny stories that your brother said? Hold onto the dear thoughts, the love and the laughter

Take care of yourself. It's so hard to lose a best friend and brother. He sounds like a man who did things his way

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by WyoSue, Oct 04, 2015
Hi Linda,
Meditating on things I'm grateful for is great advice. I've read that it can be beneficial. Thank you for the reminder. In the midst of a bad patch, I tend to forget how fortunate I am in other areas of my life.
I'm grateful to have been cured of HepC, of course, and am really glad that you, too, have reached SVR. Yay! Isn't that a grand feeling?
I'm also really grateful for my two sisters. We've shared these losses, cried on each other's shoulders, held each other up, shared memories, and even a few laughs about our loved ones.
I'm hoping that now you've finished treatment and been cured, you'll soon be feeling a whole lot better.
Again, thanks for your kind words.
Wishing you all the best!

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by Livelife777, Oct 05, 2015
Sue.   I'm sorry for the loss of your dear brother.  He sounds like an amazing man with a great spirit.  I hope you can hold onto the good memories the two of you shared.  
My thoughts are with you thru this very sad time.

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by WyoSue, Oct 05, 2015
Thank you, Kim, for your kind words. Very good advice about holding onto the memories. My two sisters and I are going to write our memories down, gather pictures of my brother, scan some of his artwork, and create a memorial book about him to share with our children (his nieces and nephews). My brother never married or had children of his own.
I still have a voice message from him on my answering machine. I don't plan to ever erase it, unless I get tired of hearing him talk about Mom's recliner.
I know, I know, I'm one sick puppy....
Again, thank you, Kim.

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by hepcandme, Oct 06, 2015
That made me laugh!

You can probably repeat the recliner line verbatim! The memorial book is a lovely idea as well

Take care

~ Linda

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by Dee1956, Oct 08, 2015
Dear Sue, I am sorry to hear you lost your wonderful brother,  Words seem so insignificant in the fact of such loss but it is all I have.  Memories are wonderful and I notice as I get older that I have many good memories.
I think my little brother will be joining your brother soon, I hope they can be friends.
My best thoughts, Dee

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by Bruin1903, Oct 11, 2015
Dear Sue......your brother sounds like a truly special man.....sending all my warmest best wishes to you and family...

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