Dec 25, 2015
I actually actively think about suicide a lot and I'm not even able to be considered depressed. I mainly do because I think I should've a long time ago with how my life keeps getting worse and worse overall. It's probably because my self esteem is so bad. I tried to kill myself while I was in Australia because my ex-wife and her family were trying to make me go against my basic beliefs and I wasn't even upset when I tried to do it. Then when it was discovered I attempted it she told me if I ever tried anything like that again she was going to "dump [my] *** in hospital and abandon [me]" and the only thing I was thinking at the time was "well better get it right next time then".