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Ok, so my throat is worse

Apr 21, 2010 - 0 comments
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Coughing

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allergys?

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losing voice

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pita bread

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recipe

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screw up

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vocab game

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+10

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YAP

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donate blood

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weight requirement

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boxes

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Positive Thoughts

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embarassed

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appreciation

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Headache

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Cody YAP

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shei

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decorating

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personality

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nervous habits

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billy

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baby caelan

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blizzards

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steve

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hamburger

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reading

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TIRED



Coughing all day, and the pain is just reaching an extra annoying level. Just scratchy. I'm losing my voice. I'm tired and my head is on the verge of a headache. Let's see. I contributed 20 oz of water to the pita bread and managed to screw it up by just that, and thne got in trouble for sitting down. Which I normally wouldn't have done, I was just so freakin tired. I finally won the vocab game! We tied with another team, holy hell I finally got the 10 extra points. I'm so excited. I could get a 115 on tomarrows test.

I went to YAP and I dunno- I was a bit gloomy. I'm upset because I could donate blood. My school aws and everyone was and I really wanted to, I always have. I want to be a part of something. I want to help and blood is something I have that's finally working for me and it's what I have to give, but they won't take it. Don't they know that I don't need it? I'm just bummed. But YAP was a bit slow at first. We made boxes and everyone wrote something positive about each other and put them in each others boxes. To me? This was like christmas. I had to find osmething everyone else would like, and then react the way they wanted me to when they saw me read theirs. Don't get me wrong, I enjoyed them. I was embarassed. I can love something without jumping up and down and dancing and hugging. It makes me so anxious. I sat alone in the kitchen growing a headache trying to think of seomthing to say about everyone. I finally got one word answers and skipped cody because he'd left and myself beacuse I didn't have one nice thought at the time. My box is cute. Shei's was nice, it better reflected her personality than my box refelcts mine. I think? Though maybe I am green and blue stripes and sparkles these days. Who knows. It made my day though. She always makes my day. I like to think I'm getting more comfortable around her, but then again my lips are ridiculously split and chapped because I lick them when I get nervous. I'm doing it now and they never get any better beacuse I don't think about doing it. But that's how habits are, huh?

We got blizzards and went back to Shei's house. Played with Caelan and Steve came and got me and I went back to his house and ate a hamburger and read and it was a quiet night. I'm still very tired though.

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