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Lyme I think I've had it for 10 years. Mental illness complications?

Feb 13, 2016 - 0 comments




I'm still trying to find out if I have chronic Lyme. I have all the symptoms and they go around and around. Dr.s think I'm a hypochondriac. My family does too. I just tell them it's all from Ovarian cancer in 2000 and the chemo I had back then. I also had mono (Epstein-Barr) a few months after I finished chemo. But I really got bit by a deer tick after that in San Antonio on my way moving to El Paso from Corpus Christi. HAHAHA. Everyone thinks it's a joke. There can't be any deer ticks in Texas. White Tailed Deer have been populated in Texas for hunters for a very long time. Drivers in S.A. know very well that deer jump out all over the streets causing wrecks. I got a deer tick behind my right knee in S.A. I had thrown my clothes on the floor of a motel room that was next to a field where deer were grazing. There was deer scat right next to the rooms there. When I got to El Paso I got into the shower and saw the tick hanging onto the back of my right knee. As I reached for it, it washed down the drain. I got the target rash and felt like I got the flu later on...then my body started going through hell and has been going through hell since. Tests, assays all neg. and now I'm going to pay out of pocket again for a test. This time its going to be CD57+NK. After 10 yrs. I don't know what I can do. But I want to know. I want some vindication for why I can't get up and move around. Why I hurt in different places all the time and my head feels like it's full of lead or air sometimes. So many symptoms and they whirr around like a slot machine. Getting fired because my symptoms kept me from doing my job. Not able to stand up for long and hold my head up. Falling asleep.  Also going deaf as an inherited trait. Diagnosed bipolar, general anxiety disorder and depression. Hell, who wouldn't be anxious and depressed? I'm not sure I'm bipolar or just angry, depressed and anxious about what my body is going to do next in any situation.  One thing that makes me extremely angry is that my physicians will not prescribe medication for anxiety. Antidepressants absolutely do not address my anxiety. I have been tortured with anxiety and not one psychiatrist will prescribe anything to relieve this. I think this is a crime to suffer with chronic anxiety and to be ignored. I'm not sure what to do about that. So, I'm working on these things.

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