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Dec 25, 2007 - 3 comments

Sometimes its great without much family, and sometimes like today it sucks.  I dont even miss them so much, and dont ever want to go back or be back with them.  I miss the memeries, I miss what we were when I will little.  I have everyone that I need my kids and hubby they are the most important people to me. I guess I am just feeling sorry for myself. I know this will pass, I think this time I just refuse it give in and take something to make it not hurt as bad. But I am not gonna, no matter what.  I know that I am going to just have to deal with all of it sooner or later.

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by jo929, Dec 25, 2007
Love bucket i really do not understand what you mean about maybe taking somrthing to get through this or yet what do you mean  you will have to deal with it someday i dont know how i ran onto you i clicked on people and you came up what is wrong anything i can help with i cant help if i donr know are you just tired sad let me know i am in the columns i will try to find you again but i am new on computer do want to help you  merry Xmas     jo

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by catfishjohn, Dec 26, 2007
If you ever need to talk let me know. I've sent you a message. I have a lot of those same feelings also but have no kids. I feel so disconnected from everybody and everything. It seems this PC is my only true friend...Thats sad! I love my G/F for over 6 years but I just can't seem to get close this last couple years. I Love her but at times I don't know what I want. I think the Ultram for me is a lot of my problems. I wish you all the best!!!

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by kimmiek, Dec 26, 2007
Lovebuckets, Hi, I am estranged from my family of origin.  I have 3 sisters and a brother and their spouses and between all of them they have 9 kids and both of my parents are still alive.  That family was extremely dysfunctional.  Completely entangled and emmeshed.  Ive been to councelors and have had close friends tell me thru the years to stay away from them.  Well, through strange circumstances, God did for me what I was too codependent and messed up to do myself.  He made a way for me and my husband to be apart from dysfunction, and the emotional and mental abuse.  We can now raise our four children in a better place.  I know your pain, though.  It sucks to be apart and to be the odd one out.  But I bet that like me you probably miss what SHOULD have been, and what you WISHED it was.  It has only been about a year and a half of estrangement for me, so its hard, but I just keep telling myself, its worth it.  Its the best thing for me and my family that God blessed me with.  Im sorry your going through that stuff.  I hope the best for you.  

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