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WHAT DON'T KILLS YOU MAKE YOU STRONGER plus PAINFUL BACK SURGERY

May 25, 2010 - 1 comments
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          I AM 41 YEARS WHITE FEMALE, THATS HAD SOME HARD TIMES BUT STILL HAS A LOVING HEART. THE MAN THAT I WAS GOING TO MARRY GOT KILLED FOUR YEARS AGO; GOT SHOT IN THE BACK OF HIS HEAD IN HIS CAR, AND NO ONE KNOWS WHO OR WHY. I MISS HIM SO, WITH FAITH I'LL SEE HIM AGAIN AND I STILL THANK GOD FOR THE TIME HE DID GIVE ME WITH HIM. THEN MY AUNT DIED AT THE AGE OF FIFTY SHE WAS LIKE A BIG SISTER TO ME, SHE DIED FOUR MONTHS AFTER MY MAN AND THEN MY DAD DIED A LITTLE OVER A YEAR AGO AND I WAS REAL CLOSE TO HIM; I HAD TAKEN CARE OF HIM FOR THE PAST TEN YEARS, THE PAST SIX HE WAS IN A WHEELCHAIR, I WAS DADDY LITTLE GIRL,HE WAS MY BEST BUDDY IN THE WORLD AND I MISS HIM SO, OH HOW I MISS HIM. I REALLY FEEL ALONE SOME TIMES BUT I PRAY TO GOD TO KEEP ME STRONG! MY MOTHER DIED SIXTEEN YEARS AGO AND TWENTY FIVE YEARS AGO, I LOST ANOTHER BOYFRIEND TO MURDER AND SEVENTEEN YEARS AGO I LOST A GIRLFRIEND TO MURDER, AND I KIND OF BLAME MYSELF FOR HER DEATH, AND WHEN I WAS 15 THERE WAS A SHOOTING IN MY PARENT'S HOUSE; MY BOY FRIEND AT THE TIME SHOT A MAN THAT CAME IN MY PARENT'S HOUSE, HE CAME IN WITH A GUN TO MY BROTHER HEAD AND CAME TO MY BEDROOM AND PUT THE GUN TO MY HEAD AND MY BOYFRIEND WAS SITTING DOWN AND THE NEXT THING I KNEW, BANG I THOUGHT I WAS SHOT BUT MY BOYFRIEND HAD A GUN ON HIM AND SHOT THE GUY, THEN WENT THREW RAPE BECAUSE OF THAT SHOOTING, KIDNAPPING , I CAN GO ON AND ON ABOUT BAD THINS THAT HAD HAPPEN TO ME ,I CAN WRITE A BOOK ABOUT A LOT OF THING; IN FACT I DID START TO WRITE THE BOOK BUT THE GIRL THAT WAS HELPING ME SHE WAS THE ONE THAT GOT KILLED. BUT LIKE THEY SAY WHAT DON'T KILL YOU MAKES YOU STRONGER AND THAT IS TRUE BUT ITS HARD SOME DAYS. OH I ALMOST LOST MY ONLY BROTHER WHICH I DIDN'T SEE FOR NINE YEARS ; HE HAD A BRAIN AYURISM AND NOW HE IS WITH ME AND HE OK; BUT HE HAS SHORT TERM MEMORY AND THAT DRIVES ME CRAZY AND I HAVE HIS SEVENTEEN YEARS OLD SON WITH ME TOO AND I HAVE A FOSTER CHILD TOO, PEOPLE WOULDN'T BELIEVE ALL THE THINGS ONE PERSON CAN GO THREW IN ONE LIFE TIME; ITS HARD TO BELIEVE THERE IS STILL A LOT MORE I CAN TELL . THAT ENOUGH FOR NOW, I THINK I SAID THAT BEFORE OH WELL. GOD HEARS MY PRAYERS
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.The big question is why am i in so much pain? three months after my surgery on my back, which was suppost to make me better; but now i am ten time worse then before. My doctor tells me over and over that i will heal and some people take longer then other. The type of pain that i am having is unreal. The surgery was march the third. I had a large herniated lumbar disc, lumbar stenosis, spondylolethiasis, and a L4 to S1 fusion. Two days after surgery the doctor sent me to a nursing home i was there for thirty days, then april the third thet kick me out ;  the nursing home the doctor that was in the nursing home and some of the nurses said that i was not ready to leave yet; but because of the insurance company, but it really didn't matter, because they only walk me six times the whole time and it i was suppost walk every day. To make matter worse they had me on every pain meds you could think of and then send me home with nothing. And between the doctors and the pharmacy i had no pain meds for two weeks; it was like being under rubble waiting for help and when i did get it did not work. The pain got so bad i had to go back to the hospital for a week and they only pump me with all kinds of drugs, setroids, iv morphine and pill morphine,vicodin,valium,lortab,tramadol,gabapentin. He was just trying to get me out of pain then send me home. Then two days the pain was back i went to see him and he gave me RX of oxy 60mg twice aday on the other stuff but told me to stop the morphine. this last time that i was in the hospital they did a mri and ct.One doctor said everything looks alright then another doctor said that there is a bluge in between L4 and L5 and that may be causing some of this pain and does not know what else can be making this pain that bad. I think he does know but not telling me i am only 43 years old. And i am so afraid that i am going to be like this for ever. what should i do? HELP PLEASE DIANA




          FOSTER MOTHER

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by spendnfast, Oct 01, 2010
Dear Dr. and Diana,
Hello, it is wonderful Dr.to have you respond to foster mother, Diana, but i am thinking you should have given a bit more information with the medications you recommended.  What will the Baclofen do, and are there any medications it should not be taken with? Lanzoprazol,--the same questions. I am only trying to be helpful to you and her--so i hope you dont mind this advice. Diana,--do check up on these medications, including their side effects, just to be on the safe side.
Best wishes, lc

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