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Jun 16, 2010 - 4 comments



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I don't know what happened to me. I was happy and pregnant, and now I'm devastated. It happened to me again. I lost another baby. How and why is this happening to me. What is it about week 7 that my body just doesn't want to support a pregnancy anymore. It does not make sense that I've done everything I can to prepare myself for motherhood only for it to be ripped from me again. It doesn't make sense to me for my life as happy as it is, just doesn't feel complete unless there's a child in it. It doesn't make sense that I've done everything in the right order like being in a stable and healthy relationship, not having any debt, being financially ready for this journey that I want to participate in only to be denied. What is wrong with me? My poor husband thinks the problem is him. Can we really be unable to and have a baby together. We could be the problem together.  I could do FET but I don't know now. I'm so emotionally drained I'm so afraid of what it will do to me. I've gained so much weight from eating at the beginning of my pregnancy mostly due to the fact that I did not have any morning sickness that it's just one more thing I have to deal with. I want to be a mother but I don't believe my body want to. I'm so lost, and scared of what the future holds right now. I have cried so much that I'm just numb, I know what happened but I may still be in shock regarding this. I don't think I even want to work at the daycare tomorrow. Would I be crazy if I did though? WHY! WHY! WHY! I need answers............

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by cedwards2, Jun 16, 2010
My advice to you first, is to pray. I am married to a wonderful man who was adopted from Korea and brought to America when he was 18 months old. I thank God everyday, that I have him in my life. His mom and dad, ( my inlaws ) have raised him up and he is called blessed. He is now 33 years old, owns a Karate school, and successful. His family raised him up with his Korean heritage, and it became his career of choice.

I have 3 children of my own, and he is a wonderful father to them. I do not know what it is like to have your situation, but I can tell you that good can come out of this. Adoption is not for everyone....but for those who choose it, the blessings are many.

My husband will never know who his birth mom was. He calls his American family Mom and Dad.  He does not have any regrets. We do know that the parents that gave him up. loved him enough to let him go for a better life.  

I will keep you and your family in my thoughts and prayers.

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by geniusiq, Jun 16, 2010
check out iodine causes miscarriages...........doctors symposium 2007..says we dont get enough in our diets, punch in,   iodine-solution to health problems     also .......dont take my word for it........check out other sites by punching in  iodine deficiency and iodine deficiency can also cause your child to be mentally before you plan another pregnancy.........make sure YOU are in good health and not deficient in anything needed to make a healthy baby.   many health problems start with a diet deficient in iodine.......among other things needed by our bodies.............also flouride and chlorine push iodine out of the it any wonder we are becoming ill?

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by tryingfor6years, Jun 17, 2010
Darla I am SO incredibly sorry..... I can't believe you work at a daycare on top of it!!  I really wish there was something I could say to make you feel better but there just isn't. I hold my breath on every scan.....  please don't give up on your dream of having a baby. Maybe use a donor egg???  i'm sorry, I'm sure advice is not what you want right now....

Big hugs to you

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by kris71, Jun 17, 2010
I am so sorry to hear about your loss. It is heart wrenching and devastating and there are literally no words...

Have you tried to get the embryo's that you miscarried tested? You might get more answers that way. If they are chromosomally normal etc? i think that they say chromosome problems/deficiencies are the highest reason for miscarriage.

Please don't give up. you will have a baby. If you need to take a break though. Take a break and come back to those frozen embies when you are ready.

Good luck and please hang in there.

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