Jun 16, 2010
I don't know what happened to me. I was happy and pregnant, and now I'm devastated. It happened to me again. I lost another baby. How and why is this happening to me. What is it about week 7 that my body just doesn't want to support a pregnancy anymore. It does not make sense that I've done everything I can to prepare myself for motherhood only for it to be ripped from me again. It doesn't make sense to me for my life as happy as it is, just doesn't feel complete unless there's a child in it. It doesn't make sense that I've done everything in the right order like being in a stable and healthy relationship, not having any debt, being financially ready for this journey that I want to participate in only to be denied. What is wrong with me? My poor husband thinks the problem is him. Can we really be unable to and have a baby together. We could be the problem together. I could do FET but I don't know now. I'm so emotionally drained I'm so afraid of what it will do to me. I've gained so much weight from eating at the beginning of my pregnancy mostly due to the fact that I did not have any morning sickness that it's just one more thing I have to deal with. I want to be a mother but I don't believe my body want to. I'm so lost, and scared of what the future holds right now. I have cried so much that I'm just numb, I know what happened but I may still be in shock regarding this. I don't think I even want to work at the daycare tomorrow. Would I be crazy if I did though? WHY! WHY! WHY! I need answers............