Aug 16, 2010
I feel like I'm already setting myself up for failure. I didn't even attempt to taper this weekend, and now it's back to work. I've already taken my normal amount this morning. I rationalize it in my head, "Well, it's Monday. I can't taper on a Monday because we'll be busy at work." I know it's just an excuse, but that's how I've always been....making excuses to not do it. I'm already experiencing anxiety just thinking of quitting Friday. Why must I do this to myself? I'm only 33 and I'm slowly killing myself, physically and spiritually and yet, I still crave them, just like I crave the cigarettes that will eventually take my breath. F*ck me.