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Last night of BC's..... :-)

Aug 24, 2010 - 0 comments








At least I'm hoping this is the last night.  I remember from previous times that I could go into tomorrow, do my bloodwork and get a call to continue with the pills.  For now, I will be excited to know I finished...for now.  

Tomorrow I go in for my bloodwork and hopefully will have a better idea of what to expect.  My 2nd wedding anniversary is coming up soon and we have a little getaway planned, but I'm thinking it may have to be put on hold if retrieval is getting closer.  

I am feeling very anxious this time around, more than I ever have, which I'm not sure why.  I guess I'm feeling frustrated by the whole process almost to the point where I'm almost ready to give up.  Seriously, do you know what I look forward to the most during this process....??? The Valium I have to take for retrieval.  That sounds awful doesn't it?  Really its the only time I can actually relax and feel like I don't have to worry about anything.  

As negative as I may sound right now, I'm positive that I will handle all of this regardless of the outcome.  I mean afterall, haven't I been handling everything already?  lol  

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