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Aug 27, 2010 - 0 comments
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I have not been so nauseous in a long, long time. I woke up with it, then it subsided, and then it came back with a vengeance. My throat is sore (which is normal for me any time I get sick) and all I want to do is go back to bed and sleep. I took a warm bath just now, which helped the bloating and the overal tummy pains to go down, but I'm still nauseous. If this is morning sickness then hallelujah, what did I get myself into??

DB called me this morning. Since he lives in Germany and I in Holland, we only get to see each other during weekends. I've been so weepy the passt two days and missing him an awful lot; last weekend we got to spend a few hours together before he had to go again. He's a mechanic and gets send all across the county he lives in (and always 4 or 5 hour driving from me). This hasn't really been helping the whole baby-making-ritual, but we keep reminding ourselves that it will happen eventually. Anywho, he called and had not one, but two nasty pieces of news. The first one is that the company he's working for is declaring bankruptcy and that he has two more weeks before there's no more work. GAH! There's plenty of other work he can do, but it's so frustrating. He loved doing this, it paid well and it made him proud to be able to put money away for us; it hurts to see how something like this took his pride away so quickly. The other thing he told me was that they're trying to get as much work done before the final day, sort of an go-out-with-a-bang thing, which means he has to work tomorrow. Since I have to work tomorrow evening and we both have other things planned on Sunday that we can't cancel, we won't see each other these two weeks. AT ALL. I cried all morning when I heard it (I told you I was weepy). Since I am now 8 DPO, next week we will either know if something is happening in my uterus or my AF will rear it's ugly head and we won't be able to BD. Very friggin frustrating to say the least.

Ah well. I'm gonna go back to bed and hope this sicky feeling is gone by the time I wake up again.

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