Saw Dr. Gibbs in the morning. he went over my medications with me. Asked me what was stopping me from workin right now. Fed my anxiety about being forced/rushed back to work.
Tonight, I felt very agitated. I had lots of nervous energy, and was fidgety. My thoughts were very rapid and unfocused, but I felt very angry and depressed. I couldn't watch tv or use the computer. I was thinking about suicide, and about cutting myself. I went for a walk, which didn't calm me down much. I was able to watch tv when I got home, and felt all the energy drain out of me. I went to sleep exhausted and forgot to take my trimipramine.